I would go back 4 years ago, to tell this girl (myself) that the battle she was struggling then would in time be her triumph.
I look back and see a heart, mind and everyday actions controlled by a body image that soon spiraled into an eating disorder.
Yes, ME, the health and fitness figure girl. And I'm not the only one.
Yes I am an active person, yes I have been involved in sports and competition all my life. I have been at a 'unfortunate societal acceptable' weight and body fat that looks great on stage. However, I've also been that girl who throws clothes all over her room because she can't seem to find anything she feels and thinks is "ok". This year I started competing for myself and for the Ally that I was beautifully and wonderfully made to be. This year I broke through my struggle of a long battle with body image and my disorder eating. My breakthrough did not come by stepping on stage again, nor by adjusting my life or mindset to anything that society tells me to be.
I am winning today and onward because I reached out and I decided to brighten my mindset. I had to step back... to find the greater gratitudes in my life. I decided to thrive into the woman that I was made to be with the help of the most incredible people that I have been blessed to have in my life. This is a thank you.
So 4 years later, I look at this throwback... I am grateful, that I am not where I was, and I am on my way to where God is placing me to be 🌻
For those fighting similar battles, you are not alone, there is someone HOPING that you will reach out and ask for a hand in support. I am one of those people.
For everyone, let's continue practicing building each other up.