Y'all, my life feels like somebody took it, put it in a bag, shook it up, turned it upside down and then poured it out. And here I am, standing in the middle of everything, trying to figure out what the fuck goes where.
I don't always feel like I'm doing a good job of putting all the pieces back in place. I often feel like I'm not getting free fast enough — like my spiritual evolution is taking too long, or I'm not doing it gracefully enough. It's hard not to beat myself up when I recognize I'm still holding on to shit that doesn't serve me.
Yesterday, I saw a sign on a building marquee that read, "Celebrate small victories," and I felt like a weight had been lifted off of me. I so deeply needed the reminder that no matter how much I "fail" on my journey towards living a more liberated life, it is my responsibility to joyfully affirm the things I'm doing right. So. Here goes.
Yesterday, I stayed hydrated. I organized the hell out of my mama's kitchen, which has been on my to-do list for months. I took a break when I felt overwhelmed. I communicated honestly about my desires, despite fear. I received critical feedback and didn't feel the need to defend myself. I cried, and didn't apologize for it. I ate fruits and vegetables. I remembered to take deep breaths. I asked for help when I needed it. I wore comfortable shoes. I danced. I told people I love that I love them. I made decisions with my heart and not with my brain.
These small victories are worthy of celebration, because they are just that: victories. Because in the not too distant past, I couldn't claim them as such. Because a past version of myself wouldn't have had the wisdom or courage or presence of mind to do many of those things.
I am reminded that even though I'm not quite where I want to be, I'm doing the things that will help me get there, and that's a victory in and of itself. I am determined to spend less energy being disappointed at where I am, and more celebrating how far I've come.
I'd love to know: What parts of you are you proud of today? What victories are you claiming? What can I celebrate with you? [📸: @ratchetaffirmations]