Dear fitness trainer, My body and I have been through a lot this year. I’ve been pumped full of hormones, poked, prodded, tested, injected, sonogramed, charted, monitored and tracked. I’ve become more aware of when my body is hungry, when it is full, when it needs to rest and when it needs to move. It looks different, feels different and moves different. I’m not really on the best of terms with it because you see, it’s not doing what it should, it’s not reproducing. So when you come over and tell me to push harder or increase my weights or stop trying to do the easy plank you have no idea what you are talking about. My body is doing the very best it can and so am I. I’m working out so that I can reconnect with my body, so that I can stop hating it for what it isn’t. I don’t need you telling me to do one more rep because you have no idea the amount of inner strength it takes just to show up to work out at all. When I work out it forces me to be present and being present means acknowledging that this is the body that I have and some days that is easier to do than others. So please be kind with your words, don’t treat modifications like they are a lesser form of exercise. Ask what my fitness goals are before assuming you know. Not everyone works out to look like the models in your fitness posters. Some of us are just trying to find peace with the bodies we have.
girl who left the gym crying