I didn't always pass out like this..
Only when 'you' I started to miss..
The pain, burned me from within..
Without leaving ashes or smoke coming through..
Everything has become hollow inside,
Like dawn, but unaware if there ever will be light. Again.
I failed to express my feelings for you..
Hunching i would survive all this. Alone.
I don't wish the pain to come to an end,
I wish life without you ceases..
As the saying goes 'pain is inevitable, suffering is optional'.
I chose to suffer. When i let you go.
I'm done being strong or acting like one.
I have failed Everyone. Family. Friends.
I can't take any longer.
I can't hold up more.
Maybe people were right. I deserve to be alone.
And. You. With. Someone. Who. Makes. You. Happy. And. Keeps. It. That. Way.
I'm afarid of the dark now. More than ever.
All I keep hearing is the sound of his laugh.
The Joker. Who took my sanity, my innocence.
Nevertheless my Childhood.
Its scary to think that even my demons will leave..Since there is none Angel watching over.
Feels like I had everything when I had you.
Now I'm stuck at dawn!
Without You. Or any Hope.
I don't need saving now.. just a way to end it.
- Mr. N !
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