My father was dying of cancer in a hospice in #Arizona when I took this photo in #newmexico at the #allnationsskatejam in #albuquerque . Our family had just been through a big scare, and were afraid he might go at any time. I had made plans long in advance to take #4wheelwarpony there, it meant much to us, means a great deal still, but that week my dad, through the immense pain he was suffering from said, "take them boys son, I'll be here when you get back."
And he was. 🤔
My father was a man, a real live #indigenous man who did not glorify the "warrior" myth penned crafted and constructed by imaginative settler colonials. My father was a man who loved his people and did not shy away from showing it, sharing it. In his life he made many grave mistakes that illuminate his humanity, but he turned that pain, trauma and unforgettable devastation he wrought into a kind gentle wisdom that empowered him to make less mistakes. I love that man and hold nothing against him because he was honest with his son about his frailty and fear. Love life, love your loves, it's all there is really. ❤️