⚪I'm pouring myself out, if you want
a sip, read on for a glass⚪ Word of the day: *Disintegration* •~The process of coming to pieces ~•
◽I''m going on an adventure. Shedding shells of past shame, such pain, dark days.
Suppressed and suffocated by my very own mind. Dancing with my demons as if they created rhythm. Standing amidst a meadow of paradise, all i could see was disrepair. So there I stood in my choked mind, and through a keyhole, envied the mirage that was Eden. ◽Pray, I confuse you not. What i mean is, in the space I inhabited, i could have prospered regardless of circumstance. But before that could happen, something had to give, my perspective had to tilt focus.
And it did.
But first, i had to drown. Sink way below the surface, learn to breathe in the absence of air. Let go and hope the murky depths of oblivion carry me to shore. Trusting the process. ◽I like to sing, write *obviously* and sometimes i can't breathe. Yes, breathe(but that's a story for another time). I'm shy but confident, assured yet self conscious. I'm a combination of good and bad and everything ugly. In my makeup, I am you, and him and her and them. I am diversity. So are you.
Yet, we are so impatient with each other's inconsistencies. Knowing all too well that, we too are a kaleidoscope of dark color and subtle intricacies. Mazes of infinite, beautiful and sometimes unfathomable complexity. ◽Darling human, all I'm saying is, as i take myself apart, retracing the darkest parts of me, disintegrating to subatomic pieces, if i ever have the fortune to encounter you, grow me so that i can widen the keyhole in my self discovery. Water me so that i can bloom to rearrange my scattered pieces into a less indelicate masterpiece.
◽As change is inevitable, we are constantly jumping from one phase of our lives to another. Everyone we meet, acting like a connecting bridge between those phases, and as we exchange the abstract and the tangible, we help each other cross.
◽In my adventure, in that regard, i hope for kind hands. ❇Becoming the kind of stranger I'd like to meet❇😊 Art: Alexia Rubod (3D Artist)