today marks a month, a month that my heart hasn’t been able to deal without seeing or being in your presence;
I spent 5/6 months each Friday with you mostly with just you and me which grew into me catching feelings for you; but ever since you had to go you’ve been all I write about, talk about, think about💭
all these emotions that I’m feeling about you and that are shared tonight; ever since last month they have honestly grown stronger; my heart simply can’t get away from you, and it doesn’t want to;
Each time that I look at your photo, when I’m looking at / into your eyes I begin to cry;
I long for your every reply but sometimes when you read, you are no where to be found in my notifications; until I carry the conversation over.
I long for your voice, your laugh, your way with words / phrases, your touch (even if it was only one hug on the last day) your scent / perfume. I loved how you always said certain words super cutely, even now with how you spell in our WhatsApp messages, with text I still hear your voice when I’m reading word for word, but all of these I will probably never hear, feel scent, listen or see again if September doesn’t happen, and I really hope that my College gives you a call to invite you to come back just to help me until I graduate, for you, I would give you everything and anything, I would do anything, for you. I would raise your two kids with all my given love, so you could see how much you mean to me.
I want your presence with mine. I want your life stories. I want memories. I want everything with you in it.
I feel as though I’ll never quite fully live life especially without you in it, even if nothing ever happens and if I can’t have or call you mine; you will forever be my forever and always🥀