Imagine trying to enjoy a pool party when you are drowning in the pool and all you can hear is people laughing, having a good time while they are completely oblivious to the way your body keeps submerging into the water getting heavier by the second, filling up your lungs. Depression is like that. •
Depression feels like everyone else around you is successful and moving on with their lives while you are stuck there in a hole...
Depression is crying yourself to sleep almost every night but not one of those light cries.. I mean the ones where you’re covering your mouth gasping for air but trying to keep really quiet so nobody can hear you, the kind where your whole face hurts, the kind where you pass right out after because it literally exhausted you...
It’s living in a body that fights to survive with a mind that wants to die.
Your only relief is to sleep all the time because “normal” people have nightmares when they sleep, but yours is when you’re awake.
You’re breathing....but that doesn’t make you alive.
It’s not being able to go out, literally, you have NO choice...your body is so so sore and exhausted from being in such a negative state 24/7 that going somewhere other than the bathroom makes you want to die. •
I was the girl that talked others out of suicide but had trouble doing so for herself. I attempted suicide twice in my life, the second time I almost died in 2016 had the paramedics gotten there later, I would not be here today. THIS IS NOT THE WAY TO LIVE. Depression is a BITCH, and it’s time it gets talked about more than once or twice a year. •
My DM’s are open, you can have my cell number, I’d talk to ANYONE even a stranger at 4AM if they were contemplating suicide and I had to work at 6AM. •
Life is f*cking amazing man. Truly. I am so blessed. Speak your truths, be open, love unconditionally, love YOURSELF above all. Keep hanging on, I promise you are loved and cared for. •
To the ladies and men that have felt all of the above, I’m SO f*cking sorry. You’re a badass, you can do it. #selflove #growth #depression #lifestyle #healthylifestyle #positivity #affirmations #happiness #smile #lifeisbeautiful #keephangingon💪 #beyou