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I AM COMEDY CAPERS
I remember seeing Comedy Capers for the first time at 8 years old, as we were leaving I said to my parents that I HAD to be in the show the following year. I auditioned and to my utter delight, was accepted to join the cast.
Those years were so formative for me. I used it as an outlet to feel confident during a period where I was being torn down every day. I was with people I admired and respected, but also shared interests with. I had found my tribe.
Mid-way through my seventh year, I took my performing to the next level, and joined an amateur theatre company. This changed my relationship with Comedy Capers. My heart was no longer in it, and I knew I had to withdraw from Comedy Capers. In my mother’s true style, she made me tell them myself – so I did. I felt incredible guilty being selfish like that, but I knew I was making the right decision. I look back at those days and am so thankful for being a part of the Caper’s Family and the impact it had on my life.
I am David Copperfield. I can't believe I am only 16. I AM LOVED.
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#thankyouMrReader #blueandgold #theatre #gangshow

I AM JUDGED.
Constantly. More so by myself than anyone else, and I'm only just realising that. I've been trapped for so long by the feeling that I am being judged for everything I do, say, look, because at one point - I was.
High school was hell. Kids were mean. I would come home from school crying all the time. I was different and an easy target. I didn't have the tools to deflect. So I took it all on board. I am currently reading STRAIGHT JACKET - HOW TO BE GAY AND HAPPY by @mrmatthewtodd and am only realising now the impact my internal judgement has caused on my adult life. (PLEASE look for this book!)
I woke up one morning recently and realised that I've never let that go. I recognised that I didn't like the feeling of being judged. But I didn't realise that the biggest culprit of it was now me. It's time to let that go. And allow myself to just be happy being me. The kids from high school have all moved on with their lives, why haven’t I?
I am not wearing that jacket anymore. Without judgement, I am me. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
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#judgement #straightjacket #selfhelpbook #selfhelp #notwearingthatjacket

I AM CONSTANTLY CURIOUS.
I ask questions. A lot of them. I have a thirst for knowledge, and want to know everything.
I want to know your past, your quirks, your funny stories, the moments that made you sad. I want to know every bit that makes you you.
I want to know the history of the places I visit, how do the locals live. Where do their traditions stem from, what secrets does their city hold.
I want to know the ins and outs of my workplace, see the big picture, understand how all the cogs work together to make the business successful. Gather insight on their trajectory.
My endless questioning isn't appreciated by everyone, so I’ve learnt how to censor myself. Ask the appropriate questions at the more appropriate times, regardless how much I might be busting to get them out. I’ve been called nosey. I’ve been called gossipy. The names hurt because it implies malice.
At my most innocent, I love storytelling. And if I am asking the questions, it’s because I want to get to the heart of the story.
I am always chasing the Once Upon A Time, and the Happily Ever After. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
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#onceuponatime #happilyeverafter #storytelling #constantlycurious

I AM EATING.
I have such a terrible relationship with food. I lost my passion for cooking after living alone for so long. I also started stress eating last year from all the pressure I was under. But my it all started when I starved myself in my early 20’s. I survived on weetbix and cheeseburgers for months. I was in a bad place mentally, and that was the best I could muster up at the time, which in turn left me malnutritioned. Unfortunately the side affect of that was my mental health. It caused major issues then, and the scars left behind continue to haunt me when I don't pay enough attention to what I am putting in my body. I have my quick fixes and can feel when I am slipping, but they are only bandaids solutions. I need to build a better relationship with food. A better way of eating. A better way of living. For the sake of my body and my mental health. Consider this an open invitation to check on me and make sure that I am eating, and eating well.
I am investigating. I am taste-testing. I am not going hungry. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#notafoodie #GAPSdiet #cleaneating

I AM CRAFTY.
I bloody love a costume! Always have, always will. And if I get to make that costume myself, even better. I am also pretty crafty. I was actually nicknamed Captain Arts&Crafts by an old roommate. Technically it has always been a skill, more than a hobby. Don’t get me wrong, I really enjoy making stuff but it’s not something I do ongoing. It’s almost an escape for me. Allowing my thoughts to disappear and focus on a project with the gluing of a sequin or a stitch. I know I don’t have a great eye for design - possibly why I only dabble. Though, give me a project or instructions and I will smash it, but as far as designing things - I have never really hit the nail on the head, or at least not enough to be successful from it.
Let’s craft sometime. I am willing and able. I AM LOVED.
#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#artsandcrafts #crafty #getyourgluegungurl

I AM HAPPY.
I am vibrant. I am effervescent. I am bubbly. I am bright. I am joyful. I am jovial. I am smiling. I am brimming with excitement. I am positive. I am affectionate. I am cheery.
I am the good times.
I AM LOVED.
#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

I AM SPEECHLESS.
Words have never been my strong point. I struggle to articulate myself at the best of times. It's even worse when I feel confronted; emotion takes over and I lose the ability to articulate. I work best in sounds and movements, which I do both a lot. I think it's why I've always responded to dance. Watching. Doing. Moving. Trying my best to express my inner voice. Unfiltered dialogue.
I am dancing on my own. I AM LOVED.
#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

I AM IN MOURNING
For the great-grandmother who took her own life
For the grandmother I never knew
For the uncle long forgotten
For the grandfather I didn't appreciate
For the grandpa that I adored and never told
For the cousin that was gone too soon
I will never forget
I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#memorial #inmemoryof #lestweforget

Love for myself,
Love for others,
and being open to love.
I don't allow much room in my life for love. I sometimes don't feel I deserve it. Or want it.
This year I wanted to focus on changing that. Allow love back into my life.
For myself, for life, and hopefully for a special someone to share it all with.
I’ve never really been in relationships, and I am ready to open my heart to all sorts of new opportunities. Before I do though, I feel I need to address everything that has come before; acknowledge it, wish it well and send it on its way. The path I previously walked had its door closed to love, so now I need to choose a new path.
This is an act of selfishness to inspire change. How you react to it is up to you. My aim is to be raw, vulnerable and speak from the heart. Breaking down the walls that I have spent so many years building around me.
It starts here: June 1st, with a quote from an extraordinary human being.
If you can’t love yourself, how the hell are you going to love somebody else?
Let the juney begin...
#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

MOST RECENT

I AM THE SUM OF MY PARTS.
It takes a brave man to confront his demons. It takes a braver man to confront them in a public forum. Taking this to a social media platform may not have been the greatest move, but I needed to be accountable for it. I have been hiding in the shadows of my shame and fears for 34 years. I want to be happy. I want to be free. I want to be proud of the wonderful mess that I am and have grown to be. I want to release the bad, welcome the good, and look forward to waking up each morning. I’ve journaled, I've meditated, I’ve dreamed, I’ve walked, I’ve cried, I’ve screamed. I have tried the things that seemed obvious to me. This isn't the final step, it's my next step. And now that this is done, I will take another step. Then another. And another. My JUNEy has finished, but my ongoing journey will continue. Thank you for being a part of my internal exploration.
I AM LOVED. fin.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#pride #gay #wizardofoz #dorothy #scarecrow #smilecrocodile #photobooth #gayswithstyle #guyswithstyle #peteralexander #rainbow

I AM THE SUM OF THE PEOPLE I LOVE.
In a journey of discovering my true self, it dawned on me that I very RARELY present my true self. For too long, I was tormented for being me, so I learnt to put up walls and not let anybody in. Yet through all these years of hiding and presenting something that resembles a person - there have been countless people who haved seen through it all and loved me for me. This post is not about me as much, but about YOU. For seeing the good in me, even when I couldn’t. For being a friend, when I didn’t think I was worthy. For staying loyal, even though I may have pushed you away. For always seeing my truth.
I am here today because you have supported me, danced with me, laughed with me, cried with me, housed me, fed me, shopped with me, walked, run, and skipped with me. Dressed up, been silly, had deep and insightful conversations, kept me real and honest and humble.
This post is dedicated to you (and y'all know who you are), I am better for having you in my life. And I vow to continue bettering myself in an attempt to be a better friend. This photo should be of the hundreds of faces that I call friends, and that are reading this now.. Instead it’s me... many times over, and many times loved.
YOU ARE LOVED because I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#youareloved #friends #bestfriends #bff

I AM MY MENTAL HEALTH.
I don't talk about it, but then nobody does.
I suffer anxiety and depression. It isn’t an “always thing”, buts its an ongoing thing. I have always attributed it to when I stopped eating. I don’t remember it much being around before then. I have also always denied the truth about it and convinced myself it isn’t as bad as I think.
A friend recently shared their own struggle with mental health, saying that it wasn't until seeing a short film about living with a Black Dog that they acknowledged there was a real issue, to which they got help for. I've never gotten help. I've just endured it. Put up with it. Decided it was my burden to bear. I knew I came from a history of mental illness, and figured it was my turn to now suffer. My friend’s recent admission has changed that. Their vulnerability and openness has inspired me to admit that I do need help. I don't deserve to suffer. I deserve to fight my inner demons.
I am the history I write for myself. I am my future. I am brave. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#mentalhealth #anxiety #depression #beyondblue #theblackdog #amazingfriends #battle #talkaboutit

I AM BOY CRAZY.
Rory, Joshua, Sean, Mitchell, Jesse, Nathan, Justin, the crushes, the lusts, the interludes and the flirtatious interactions. These people have shaped me. These people have shaken me. These people have made me laugh, smile, love, cry, and made me be wiser and stronger. For some of those “relationships”, I am proud of what was accomplished and remember them fondly, others are filled with regret and disdain for the behaviour I displayed. But with each new boy that comes and goes, I am one step closer to finding the one… or maybe two.
The more I learn about myself from these fleeting relationships, the more I get excited about the person I ultimately share my whole self with. I look forward to making their life richer, as they do mine. We will laugh, we will smile, we will cry, we will fight, we will grow and we will love each other until the end. Until then, my wandering eye will wander. I will flirt with temptation. I will make mistakes in the name of love.
I am in waiting. I am Prince Charming. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#heart #gay #relationship #crushes #flirting #temptation #princecharming #lookingforlove #bachelor #boyfriend #husband #gaymarriage #family #pride #thegrindrguide

I AM ADDICTIVE.
This is something I have never spoken about. I am not an addict, I am not seedy, I am not hiding.
I have an addictive personality. I recognised this very early on in my life, and have constantly monitored myself ever since. It is something that I recognise in myself, it is something I know about myself, and to this date it is something that I trust myself with. I make mistakes like every human being, but I am also conscious of when I slip and make the necessary corrections. Addiction for me isn't drugs or alcohol, it's anything that I take in excess. Booze. Weed. Sex. Sugar. Tv. Internet. Porn. Coffee. Painkillers. Food. No food. Shopping. Shoplifting. Dating Apps. Self-gratification. Thinking.
I am only just now learning that this actually may have something to do with my torment through my developing years, and something I can ultimately overcome. The future looks bright. (@mrmatthewtodd spells it out in his book Straight Jacket)
Until then, I am my addictions, but I am also my own solution.
I am courageous. I am strong. I AM LOVED.
(photo by the beautiful @tarshahosking)

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#giveupthedrink #pandorasbox #addiction #grindr #stronger

I AM MUSICAL THEATRE
Legit, if I could live at least one day fully in song just like they did in Buffy, then I would die a happy man.
My love began when I was around 6 years old. My parents took me to see Big River: The Adventures of Huckleberry Finn and from there musical theatre became my escape. I am not your bona fide musical theatre geek. I didn’t get obsessive, but I definitely fell in love with the magic of it all. My parents would take me to see the age appropriate shows; I am one of the thousands of children who saw Bert Newton as The Wizard of Oz. It wasn’t until I got into West Side Story that I realised how fun it was to live inside a musical. I ate it up. Bye Bye Birdie, Best Little Whorehouse in Texas, Finian’s Rainbow, Scrooged, Guys & Dolls, Grease and then finally living out my dream of playing the Scarecrow in The Wizard of Oz. I managed to dabble in other forms of theatre before it all fell by the wayside when I moved interstate.
Since then I have been to Broadway multiple times and been inspired time and time again. I would love to create my own work, and I aim to. I am currently feeding my fascination with all things Bob Fosse (WHAT A MAN) and immersive theatre. I really do miss performing though - maybe its time to break open my show box and plunge into an audition and see where it lands... thoughts?
I am defying gravity. I am greased lightning. I am off to see the Wizard. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#wicked #fosse #bobfosse #wizardofoz #guysanddolls #broadway #byebyebirdie #bestlittlewhorehouseintexas #northernlighttheatrecompany #sitdownyourerockingtheboat #staytuned #comingtoatheatrenearyou

I AM IN MOURNING
For the great-grandmother who took her own life
For the grandmother I never knew
For the uncle long forgotten
For the grandfather I didn't appreciate
For the grandpa that I adored and never told
For the cousin that was gone too soon
I will never forget
I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#memorial #inmemoryof #lestweforget

I AM EATING.
I have such a terrible relationship with food. I lost my passion for cooking after living alone for so long. I also started stress eating last year from all the pressure I was under. But my it all started when I starved myself in my early 20’s. I survived on weetbix and cheeseburgers for months. I was in a bad place mentally, and that was the best I could muster up at the time, which in turn left me malnutritioned. Unfortunately the side affect of that was my mental health. It caused major issues then, and the scars left behind continue to haunt me when I don't pay enough attention to what I am putting in my body. I have my quick fixes and can feel when I am slipping, but they are only bandaids solutions. I need to build a better relationship with food. A better way of eating. A better way of living. For the sake of my body and my mental health. Consider this an open invitation to check on me and make sure that I am eating, and eating well.
I am investigating. I am taste-testing. I am not going hungry. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#notafoodie #GAPSdiet #cleaneating

I AM GAY.
This has tones of a coming out post. Possibly it is.. Not to the world though, cos Y’ALL KNOW I’m gay. But more to myself. I’m finally allowing myself to come full circle and settle in a place where I feel comfortable in my sexuality.
I didn’t have gay role models during the beginning of my exploration. I also didn’t have a support network to turn to. My sexuality was the most isolating factor for me growing up. It outcasted me in highschool, it caused conflict within close friendships, and became a barrier between me and my family. It’s caused me grief and heartache, so how could I ever be proud of that?
It’s only been in very recent years that I have started openly talking about all things homo. I now have role models, most of which I feel blessed to call friends: @bigandmilky, @heyrooney, @sthhwrd, @legateauchocolat, @hclaytonwright (just to name a few), people I know and admire for being comfortable and proud in their own skins. I always thought that being slightly effeminate was wrong, because that was all I ever knew. Seeing it celebrated in so many different and beautiful ways has changed the way I think about myself, and it feels FUCKING great!
I am not about to start slapping a rainbow on everything, because that isn’t me. But I am totally down for a splash of glitter on my face and a boogie on the dance floor to only the best trashy pop.
I’m a Judy. I’m a friend of Dorothy’s. I am fierce. I AM LOVED.
#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#slay #comingout #gay #itgetsbetter #feminine #glitter #glitterbrow #rainbow #glitter #dancefloor #pride #rolemodels #judy #friendofdorothy

I AM MY DISNEY FAMILY
When I was 18, I went to @disneylandparis and I fell in love. I was instantly whisked away into the magical world they had created and got swept up in the fantasy. I knew from that visit that I wanted to work for Disney. I came home and worked out my career path. I finished High School, studied tourism and halfway through my first semester, I got a offer to work for Disney Cruise Line. At 20 years old, I had reached my dream job. Due to company policy, I had to wait until I was 21 to start my dream job. The second time I had to wait for something I wanted badly.
I finally arrived on the Disney Magic and my life would change forever. I made some of my greatest friends during my time with Disney. I had magical moments, adventures a plenty and definitely one too many cheap drinks at the crew bar. Disney allowed me to feel comfortable in my own skin for the first time because being gay was a non-issue on the ship. It’s also the place I fell in love for the first time.
The whole experience may have not ended Happily Ever After, but the memories and friendships will be forever everlasting.
I am my blue and gold. I AM LOVED.
#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#disney #5to7 #oceaneersclub #pirateschool

I AM CRAFTY.
I bloody love a costume! Always have, always will. And if I get to make that costume myself, even better. I am also pretty crafty. I was actually nicknamed Captain Arts&Crafts by an old roommate. Technically it has always been a skill, more than a hobby. Don’t get me wrong, I really enjoy making stuff but it’s not something I do ongoing. It’s almost an escape for me. Allowing my thoughts to disappear and focus on a project with the gluing of a sequin or a stitch. I know I don’t have a great eye for design - possibly why I only dabble. Though, give me a project or instructions and I will smash it, but as far as designing things - I have never really hit the nail on the head, or at least not enough to be successful from it.
Let’s craft sometime. I am willing and able. I AM LOVED.
#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#artsandcrafts #crafty #getyourgluegungurl

I AM JUDGED.
Constantly. More so by myself than anyone else, and I'm only just realising that. I've been trapped for so long by the feeling that I am being judged for everything I do, say, look, because at one point - I was.
High school was hell. Kids were mean. I would come home from school crying all the time. I was different and an easy target. I didn't have the tools to deflect. So I took it all on board. I am currently reading STRAIGHT JACKET - HOW TO BE GAY AND HAPPY by @mrmatthewtodd and am only realising now the impact my internal judgement has caused on my adult life. (PLEASE look for this book!)
I woke up one morning recently and realised that I've never let that go. I recognised that I didn't like the feeling of being judged. But I didn't realise that the biggest culprit of it was now me. It's time to let that go. And allow myself to just be happy being me. The kids from high school have all moved on with their lives, why haven’t I?
I am not wearing that jacket anymore. Without judgement, I am me. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#judgement #straightjacket #selfhelpbook #selfhelp #notwearingthatjacket

I AM COMEDY CAPERS
I remember seeing Comedy Capers for the first time at 8 years old, as we were leaving I said to my parents that I HAD to be in the show the following year. I auditioned and to my utter delight, was accepted to join the cast.
Those years were so formative for me. I used it as an outlet to feel confident during a period where I was being torn down every day. I was with people I admired and respected, but also shared interests with. I had found my tribe.
Mid-way through my seventh year, I took my performing to the next level, and joined an amateur theatre company. This changed my relationship with Comedy Capers. My heart was no longer in it, and I knew I had to withdraw from Comedy Capers. In my mother’s true style, she made me tell them myself – so I did. I felt incredible guilty being selfish like that, but I knew I was making the right decision. I look back at those days and am so thankful for being a part of the Caper’s Family and the impact it had on my life.
I am David Copperfield. I can't believe I am only 16. I AM LOVED.
#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#thankyouMrReader #blueandgold #theatre #gangshow

I AM A SCOUT
A Scout is trustworthy
A Scout is loyal
A Scout is helpful
A Scout is friendly
A Scout is cheerful
A Scout is considerate
A Scout is thrifty
A Scout is courageous
A Scout is respectful
A Scout cares for the environment
13 years a Scout. I AM LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
#actuallyquiteamazing

#scout #scoutsaustralia #cubscout #joeyleader #venturer

I AM A LETTER TO MY YOUNGER SELF
Dear Joel,
For all the love, lightness and laughter you have encountered in your early years, you are about to go through a shift. Kids are going to get mean, the words they use are going be confusing and hurtful and you're going to encounter an isolating sadness. The pain and hurt that is caused now is going to last longer than it ever should, but I stand here today letting you know that it will pass.
The words they use have truth to them, although it won’t feel like it at the time. Your resilience and strength shine through, and your determination to not let them defeat you will be your saviour.
The path ahead is not full of sunshine and rainbows, and still isn’t, but the opportunities and friends you collect along the way, will be wilder than you could ever imagine.
YOU WILL travel the world multiple times.
YOU WILL work for Disney, MTV and for an incredible hotel in Dubai.
YOU WILL work in television & film, and rub shoulders with multiple celebrities.
YOU WILL make amazing friends from all over the globe.
You have so many amazing experiences ahead of you, so please hang in there.
I’m sorry for what you are about to go through, and I wish there was someway I could protect you from it all because it will be utterly painful and confusing. You will feel alone and lost, but hang in there kiddo, we get to be the amazing creature we are today because of what you endured.
I love you. WE ARE LOVED.

#juneyoflove
#selflove #worthyoflove #iamloved
#lovewins #love
#selfhelp #relationships #husbandmaterial

#ifyoucantloveyourself #howthehellareyougonnalovesomebodyelse
#loveyou #loveme #bits
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I AM MY HAIR
Gaga sang about it, but I feel like I have lived it.
I have done it all with my hair - long, short, shaved, artistic, coloured, straight, wavy, curls, all of it.
I like that I can do whatever I want and it bounces back.
At the heart of it though, I’m walking around with a mop on my head.
It’s thinned out a bit over the years, but it’s still all sticking around.
Visiting a hairdresser is also one of my guilty pleasures, especially if it's one who understands how my hair sits (and trust me, not many of them do)
I'm as free as my hair, I am my hair. I AM LOVED.

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I AM A STUDENT OF LIFE.
School ended up being the good, the bad and the ugly.
When I was young, I loved going to school. I had friends. I had fun. I laughed. I smiled. It was easy when everything was innocent.
As we got to the last years of Primary School, the boys recognised that I was spending a lot of time with the girls, so started calling me a GIRL.
When I got to High School, they had found more hurtful words: FAGGOT, GAY and HOMO. Those words made me cry a lot. Especially since I didn't believe them to be true. I spent a lot of time trying to be invisible to reduce the torment. I won a scholarship to go on student exchange halfway through my last year of school. It was the saviour of my teenage years.
I was actually a really studious kid. I wonder how different my life would have been if I was allowed to just focus on schoolwork, rather than just surviving.
I actually spend more time wondering what happened to the kids I went to school with.
Where are they now? What have they done with their lives? Do they know how much hurt they caused?
I am stronger for my suffering. I am smart. I AM LOVED.

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I AM EMPATHIC.
Which honestly leaves me exhausted.
I only discovered the term last year, but have known there was something different about for me some time. When I was younger, my family and I were at a scout meeting and I could see a single mother with her kids on the other side of the room. I watched her over the night and slowly became so consumed by sadness that my parents had to take me home. I can clearly remember sobbing in my father’s arms trying to explain how I could feel how lonely and sad the woman was, much to his confusion. Empathy is the ability to understand how someone else feels in a situation, but being an EMPATH means you personally feel what the other person is feeling in that situation.
I am constantly full of emotions. Mine. Others. People I know. People I don't know. The good and the bad. It makes me sad. It makes me elated. It can change my mood quickly. It makes me tired. I am still learning to control it, and spend a lot of time alone recharging my batteries. I am however getting better at acknowledging it, and letting it wash over me.
I am full. I am emotional. I AM LOVED.
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I AM CONSTANTLY CURIOUS.
I ask questions. A lot of them. I have a thirst for knowledge, and want to know everything.
I want to know your past, your quirks, your funny stories, the moments that made you sad. I want to know every bit that makes you you.
I want to know the history of the places I visit, how do the locals live. Where do their traditions stem from, what secrets does their city hold.
I want to know the ins and outs of my workplace, see the big picture, understand how all the cogs work together to make the business successful. Gather insight on their trajectory.
My endless questioning isn't appreciated by everyone, so I’ve learnt how to censor myself. Ask the appropriate questions at the more appropriate times, regardless how much I might be busting to get them out. I’ve been called nosey. I’ve been called gossipy. The names hurt because it implies malice.
At my most innocent, I love storytelling. And if I am asking the questions, it’s because I want to get to the heart of the story.
I am always chasing the Once Upon A Time, and the Happily Ever After. I AM LOVED.

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