The moment you ask yourself the question "WHY ME?" is the moment you start playing the role of the victim. As Dr. Steve Maraboli once said; "Your complaints, your drama, your victim mentality, your whining, your blaming, and all of your excuses have NEVER gotten you even a single step closer to your goals or dreams. Let go of your nonsense. let go of the delusion that you DESERVE better and go EARN it!" Last Wednesday Night during a soccer game as I took a step to catch the ball on top of my 18 yard box, I felt like I got hit badly from behind and I also heard a loud pop. I turned around right away so pissed off looking to see who would be stupid enough to foul me like that, and there was no one around me. After 5 seconds I realized what happened and went down in tears and so much pain with my dignity and pride evaporating right before my eyes. I've dealt with lot of injuries in my career but i knew this was probably the worse one yet. I was taken to the hospital that night and was diagnosed with season ending and potentially career ending injury. Doctors told me I torn my ACHILLES TENDON and put half of my leg in cast till I see the specialist to find out if i have to do a surgery or not. Best case scenario for me is No surgery, 8 weeks in cast and 8 weeks of rehab to be able to walk normally and worse case, surgery with 6-12 months of rehab.
I've been in bed rest for past 4 days and completely isolated myself from the world mainly because it is extremely hard for me to let people see me like this. During this time I never asked myself why me? But I continue to ask myself what am I suppose to do right now as I feel crippled and no knowledge or experience is helpful at this point. I've dealt with a lot of shit in my lift but never felt like I have nothing left in the tank and when you feel like that, it is so damn hard to find something positive to hold on to. Everything becomes annoying specially when close friends and family become doctors and give you their own diagnosis and on top of that they feel like they have the right to tell you to just stop playing and you'll be alright? (Please read the rest in comment section👇🏻)