It’s the weekend ! YAY! I can focus on rest, good sleep, quality training and making plans 🤔 💪🏻💫😄 I work full time and drive for 2 hours a day.
if I’m full of energy and I’m organised, the days are a breeze, training, working , cooking and maybe even some plans of an evening Becsuse I feel sexy , confident and in control 🌟🙌
but then there’s the other days I feel fine during the day at work but then am that tired when I’ve driven home that my bags, all 4 of them ( handbag, gym bag, food prep bag, laptop bag) literally get dropped on the floor as soon as I step foot home, I feel drained, I feel the least attractive anyone could , I grab something comfy and un-matching and spend the whole evening on the sofa thinking of all the things I’m meant to be doing like the dishes, food prep, or the wonderful things I had thought all day I wanted to do when I got home , plus generally getting ready for work.
Then before I know it, it’s 11pm and I’ve stressed myself out procrastinating , beating myself up wishing I had gotten myself into gear hours ago and gotten everything done as soon as I got in. Then actually perhaps been able to chill or do something ....but no..... still sat there “thinking “ about it all and getting angry at myself .... 🤷🏼♀️😂
I never really know which of the 2 versions of me in going to be until I actually get home from work and people sometimes don’t understand that, or me ..I forget sometimes how much all this training must take it’s toll on my body and mind, so no wonder if I’m not fully rested that I can’t do what I want when I’m home, its frustrating.
So whether I come home rested, confident , sexy , full of energy Larissa , or exhausted, feeling 0 sexy , 0 confident , ugly un-matching comfies , want to hide from the world Larissa ... who knows ..... it’s a daily lottery 🤦🏼♀️🤷🏼♀️ But that’s the price to pay for wanting to push yourself and be the best you can be ...... you have to make sacrifices .... it can be lonely .... some people might not get that , and that’s ok , perhaps think about surrounding yourself with people that do, it’s a learning curve, nobody is perfect , just keep pushing on 🌟💫🌟 YOU GOT THIS 🌟