The Jacob's Ladder | Perth, Australia | Sat 20 Jan 2018 06:20hrs
I snapped this photo after I completed my first ever Jacob's Ladder "circuit". My friend said "Is that all? 242 steps?" after we reached the bottom of the steps. Half way up. Shit. Both of us realised we were so unfit. Thighs & lungs burning. .
Yet, I felt...alive. Why? Because these last few weeks, I was restless and bleurgh at the same time. My motivation in nearly everything was low. Until little things happend a few days ago which helped me to snap out of this numbness. A quick 2am talking session, bumping into my thesis supervisor, rapid journalling as if my inner demons want to purge out and completed my first Jacob's Ladder. All helped to unsnap. Slowly.
This is the most personal IG post I've done. I choose to tell you my story today. I may never post again like this or I may do it often. It is raw with grammatical mistakes, probably missing words and disjointed thoughts. But. Here is my vulnerability online. My fucking feelings.
Thank you for taking time to read this post. My question is to you, how do you un-numb?
With love. Liana.