#suicideawarness We sit on instagram and facebook and we feed off the quotes that tell us we are not good enough or we compare ourselves to those are 'succeeding' - all in all social media can be our enemy if we choose to make it.. we will never be free of it nor will we ever stay away from it and it's ok - if I can capture inspire one person who is struggling or who is looking for there last glimpse of hope by telling my story and by hash tagging #suicidestories #depressed #depression #cutting #suicide #darkness #sadness then I have succeeded 💕
We have all been to the darkest corners of our minds, places we thought didn't exist or places we thought we'd never go, it was this time last year that I was in my darkest hour and had given up all hope that anything was going to get better, it is so cliché but I am telling you IT DOES.
I was addicted to feeling #numb and i fed off #quotes that told me I wasn't good enough.
In July of 2016 I decided it was to much for me and I was prepared to end my life, this wasn't planned, I didn't write a note, it was irrational and surprisingly it was so easy. I took 7 illicit pills 3 hallucinates and many prescription pills in order to commit #suicide - I'll tell you this , YES your life flashes before your eyes and you remember all the good in your life it's like torture! Some of us die instantly when we commit suicide some of us want to feel the pain (that was me) - but through the numbness and the pain FEAR overcome me and I knew the pain people would feel if I was gone or was so SCARY so I called my brother and I told him what I had done.. someone saved me that day, I saved me. I new it wasn't my time to go and even though I had to go through all the pain and suffering that day and I tell you my heart has never been the same - I'm so glad I did.
Today is a fucking shit day but I'm rocking it and I'm getting through it and I'm looking at that light at the end of the tunnel and I know that I have made it and I will always make it!
if I can inspire one person through these hash tags today I have succeeded whether it's friends or strangers - IT DOES NOT RAIN FOREVER ❤️❤️