So check this out. My goal was to go for a long bike ride (60 miles) Friday afternoon, however, by the time it came for me to head out, I got as far as a warm up, but that was it. I couldn't bring myself to get on my bike and go. So what happened? I didn't feel like it. I started negotiating. I did a small load of laundry, updated my website and then...I had a margarita. I was finding other things to do to distract me and I was defintely in that mode of "I just want to be." As relaxed as I felt, I still thought about that I talked myself out of exercising. Guilt was setting in. So I told myself that I would be making it up on Saturday. This pic was from Saturday and I was still not feeling it. Didn't want to. N-O! BUT I had compromised my goal on Friday, so I needed to make up for it even if I didn't want to because I committed to this goal. So I started with a warm up and then rode 54 miles. Not quite my goal of 60, but I'm not complaining.
I vowed to put in the training for this half Ironman knowing that there were going to be days where I wasn't going to want to. If I slacked off I was only going to hurt myself. Physically and mentally. When I make a goal, I say it out loud and make a promise to myself that I will do it. It's my word and when I say something or set out to do something, I mean it.
I used to say many things and never follow through. Always filled with excuses. Convincing myself that it was too hard and that it was ok if I couldn't or didn't do it. I now know I am in charge of whatever goal I want to manifest. I just have to put in the work. At times I won't want to. I will feel like giving up. And there might be days I miss that workout. So I make that promise to myself. I have to push myself. It is up to me. It's going to be really hard sometimes. Just face the consequences when you mess up and keep pushing on.
So if you think you're the only one that gets those moments of "I don't want to today," you're NOT. Even your trainer here has her moments. But when I mess up, I choose to keep going, face the emotional consequences and make the time adjustments to make it happen. Learn from and push on! #mtc24