Anyone else have fat days/moments? It can’t be just me.
Today in the gym with all the damn mirrors, I had one. Getting into the gym was the first battle (I’ve misplaced my mojo since being sick) so I was all, “F yeah I’m here!” And then my brain went to that place void of kindness and begun to TEAR apart every soft bit I could see in the mirror. The mini muffins I enjoyed on the weekend, the advent calendar I’ve been partaking in and the training sessions I’ve missed these last two weeks - all of it was there in the mirror for Judgy Mc judgejerson me to weigh in on 🙃
Stopping myself from these thoughts was not my initial response (yes, I wallowed in pity for a few sets more) but if my VERY sporadic use of @headspace and mindfulness work has taught me anything, it’s that I am not my thoughts.
I am not my thoughts, therefore I am not “fat,” I have fat. I am however a coach, a daughter, an aunt and a girlfriend 👯♀️ I’m a business owner (and girl gang leader), a plant momma, a friend, a foodie and a probably-should-get-a-restraining-order level DOG stalker 🐶 I am many things to many people but “fat” is not one of them.
Long story short I got over myself, lifted some heavy stuff and ate a meal that NOURISHED my body, mind and soul. All those actions (reframing the conversation, continuing my workout and choosing awesome food) seem semi-insignificant on their own but they helped me to redirect my internal chatter to a more POSITIVE one ✨ I now know this is what I need, after many years of just indulging in the shit talk instead 🤷🏼♀️🙊
Moral of the story: We are more than sacks of skin - sometimes the one upstairs just needs some help in remembering that 🧠