I couldn't remember which pills I was supposed to take this morning.. All I wanted to do yesterday was go out and have a pint in the sunshine.
Since I got back from #sanfrancisco I haven't been able to leave the flat much. I haven't been for a walk to the beach or been for a jog. I've mostly been either at work or at home bar a couple of evenings.
This is what's going on and I hope it's not seen as a ' poor me' post. It's really not the intention.
I have had #psoriasis since I was 7. Red patchy skin caused by my immune systems over producing skin cells. It's caused and made worse by #strepthroat. My skin is mild in comparison to some, I get away with it lightly. I have developed #psoriaticarthritis though. I now have #bilateral #errosion in my hips which causes back pain when I do too much and exacerbates an injury from lifting in my previous job.
They've started me on a new injection called #humira to fix my skin and #arthritis, but as it's #suppressed by immune system dramatically I've now broken out in a dose of #shingles
When I was in America I managed to pull the muscles that connect your heel to your toes called #plantarfascitis. It's not helped by my arthristis. This is why I've had pain and trouble walking for the last few months. That is starting to get better now because of the humira, but now I might have to come off the #injections because my #immunesystem is too low, making my skin, hips and feet hurt again.
I have some pretty dark mental health issues. I have battled suicide and have a bottle of anti anxiety medication beside my bed at all times just incase I need it. On occasion Al has had to ask do I need to take them as he can tell when I'm in a bad spiral before I am. I'm lucky to have him because when my mind gets dark, it gets really dark.
They prescribed me a drug called #lyrica for the nerve pain for my shingles. When Al found out he got really worried and they're very strong medication for anxiety/epilepsy. So instead I'm taking Solpadol which make me feel really sick, but they work.
So today my main aim is to chill out, remember shit could be worse and try and make myself better. Next summer I WILL be able to play in the #sun