Sharon Osbourne was the first to speak after what felt like twenty long seconds of dead air. “Well?” she asked. This is when one’s team player instincts switch on. I wanted to play along. I sensed immediately this could be a set up, or perhaps a miscommunication with my producer who told me to wait for a question before saying anything. I was on camera. I wanted to save the scene. I wanted to make the scene. I wanted to present myself as a nice sympathetic character and I didn’t want to bite the hand feeding me this opportunity. I replied “Well what?” in a kind of innocent, calm, and cute way I thought would look good while disarming the judges. I was going to follow my producer’s directions. I wasn’t going to say anything until I got a question, a real question. I’m not going to fall into a weird trap of not following the rules. I’m a good boy. I’ve always been a good boy.
Osbourne asked again, “Well?” to which I responded, quickly shrugging my shoulders in a calm, joking but defiant way, “Well…What?” Suddenly Sharon in her admonishing stern motherly way shaking her head said, “No, no, no you’re obviously not ready. Go offstage, collect yourself and come back when your head is on right”. I said, “I’m cool. I’m all right. I can perform” She laughed doubtingly and insisted, “Um no. Just take a few moments and come back out.” I walked towards my producer Lindsey who wore a blank slightly lowered softly squinting face that somehow communicated that everything was okay. I paced once or twice a few feet back and forth wondering if I just lost my chance by following the wrong rules. I obviously wasn’t giving them what they wanted. I knew it was a setup to mess with my head and get a reaction, but maybe they were actually disappointed with me. I don’t like to disappoint anybody and I really wanted to be on television. If I made it past Vegas, that’s some guaranteed air time. Lindsey said to take a few seconds, had me face towards going back. She asked me if I was okay and said I to go back if I was ready. #memoir #politics #identity #novelty #americasgottalent #mindgames