#ConcertPhotography BONUS: Today marks one year since #LizOs1stWarpedTour (and maybe last, because I can't make it to this year's final run 😔)! If I hadn't experienced this day, I don't know if I would've realized that I was ready to start taking on gig photography professionally. It was also the first gig/festival I ever went to by myself, even though I did end up meeting some familiar faces from @slpancakes later that afternoon!
My blurple hair may make me *look* like I'm a risktaker, but, as I learned a few months after Warped, I'm actually just a lifelong battler of generalized anxiety. Fear borne from my brain's chemical imbalances led me to not trust myself to take on responsibilities many take for granted. For the majority of my working years post-college, I didn't trust myself to make designs for a fair compensation, because I thought I didn't deserve it. I still struggle with even wanting to learn how to drive (and even if I could, what car could I afford to drive?), because I don't trust myself to pay attention well enough on the road to not get into a wreck. (Some of these things are things I've never said publicly before, from the fear of being lectured on how to "get over these stupid things" in the comments. 😳) What does Warped have to do with all this, right? (A significant bit!) Warped made me take tiny risks. The reward of developing my gig photo portfolio was just too good for me to turn away from. Going by myself actually made it way more enjoyable. There were no close friends for me to lean on, but it also meant that there was no one holding me back from seeing as many bands as I wanted to! I was so swept up in the moment that I didn't notice how much kicked-up dirt from the circle pits I'd inhaled all day long until I got home and started sneezing dirt during "Game of Thrones." 😂 Baby steps like the ones I took that day stick with me better than trying to conquer everything at once. Warped became my giant leap.
@vanswarpedtour 2017 — Merriweather Post Pavilion, Columbia, MD — July 16th, 2017