I use the analogy that my mania is like a wolf and my coming down is like a black widow. It has been awhile since I have seen this side of me. I have so much clarity of my actions. Even though I feel I was successful in obtaining the job I wanted. I have gone overboard because I now have 3 jobs that I like. I leave my house at 7 am and do not return till 10 pm. I work 12 hours a day 7 days a week. Believe me if I could survive on less than 6 hours of sleep...I would, and I would get a 4th job. My Web now extends far and wide and continues to grow. But there is nothing alive within the web personally. I have either killed the connection or have been ignoring them. Saddly, I do not want anyone around me...I am no longer in mania, I may have dipped to low. I have friends and my sister who continue to call and text me, I do not respond. They are aware this is normal and I will come out. But for now I have been thinking of my actions and personally I deserved to be ghosted, so much that I do not even want to deal with myself and so...I have apparently ghosted myself. I have checked out of any life I once had and filled it with work. I am so tired at the end of the day that even keeping up with this account is a lot. I do not know how long I will ghost myself, but I see no reason not to. I am not really that great of a person. I kind of look at it like, there is to much problems there and I do not want to deal with it, so I ghost my life. I assume, that is what everyone else thinks that has ghosted me and I am right there with them.
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