There are some things in this life that are important and a whole lot of things that aren't.
Nov. 12,2018 Monday 4PM.
When my son Joshua got home from a four day BSP Jamboree in Mainit. Without any word I immediately checked his things, looking at the list , I found things lacking including his shoes , type A polo and bsp cap uniform which I bought a day before the camping. In the height of my anger I shouted and ranted , condemned him being careless and he could not anymore join any of the extra curricular activities.
I was still in the midst of my anger when I saw a crumpled paper and the BSP i.d. It was a letter for me , asking sorry that he lost some of his things. He also wrote about what he accomplished during the 4 day camping.
Can't forgive myself. I didn't even checked him how he was, how about his meals, did he slept well? Did he enjoy the camping ? Was he get hurt? Was he thirsty ? Did he ate well? How was his night being in the crowded tent sleeping just in a piece of wood, I didn't even asked if he was bitten by mosquitoes. I didn't even checked his physique if he got some bruises or cuts. Was'nt even congratulate him for his achievement. Why am I so damn shit giving much attention and concern to the things rather than thanking God that my son is home and safe? Why did I gave much importance to the things -despite I had a hard time in having those stuffs but it shouldn't be the priority. Things can be replaced no matter how expensive it is. But disregarding the joy of my son upon seeing me, when all he wants was to embrace me but distance himself because of fear when he saw me bursting in fire of anger. This broke my heart. I ended up crying to no end. My son got asleep out of fear. I woke him up. Give him tight embrace, asking sorry for what I've done. He cried and said " ayaw pag sorry Mama ". Little did I know that he has cough.
I was blinded by the things that aren't important. I forgot the life of the angel that God has entrusted upon me. The life that should be valued and what really matters above all.
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