Yesterday was a weird day... a lot of nostalgic thoughts on my life, how honestly lonely I am with no boyfriend, husband, or family/parents; how it can totally suck when you just want people in your corner and to love you (I totally do, but that's a different story). Yesterday was also my dad's birthday (Happy Birthday Dad❤) He was always my favorite parent, (I'm his literal female twin) and its sad that he got sucked into my mother's delusions and is so okay with it. I miss him all of the time and while it gets easier with time, that's also a lie because some things never get easier with time; they just hurt less. And even that is a lie because it always hurts, you just learn to put it on the back burner.
So I was fighting with myself about getting ready for work, or should I say, my lack of wanting to get ready for work.... but decided to anyways. Did my makeup, but didn't brush my hair (see what I did there?! Compromises! Haha). I had about 4 people tell me I looked pretty when I got to work, which I laughed at initially, but then snapped this photo and gosh golly darn, I did actually feel pretty :) So the moral of the story is, it may not start right, but you can end it right✌🏻
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