~ There is a reason you always felt like you didn’t fit in ~
Like you were a stranger from a distant planet. Like you’d been born into the wrong family, the wrong world. Like your very existence was a cosmic error.
Your feeling of ‘not fitting in’ was not wrong or bad. It was deeply intelligent! It was not a sign of your pathology. It was a sign of your originality, your inability to be conceptualised.
Maladaption to an insane situation is pure intelligence, so of course you felt maladapted!
You were not willing to reduce the vastness of your being, to squash yourself into a mould which was way too small for you, too limiting, too violent, too dishonest.
You wanted to retain your uniqueness, not lose yourself in the madness of the world.
Your family was not your family; your home was not your home.
Perhaps others called you crazy, sick, abnormal, ungrateful, selfish, evil; treated you like an outcast. And of course, from their perspective, they were right. We judge what we fear. We reject what we do not understand. We attack in others what we secretly hate in ourselves. You were a scapegoat for their unconscious misery, their own sense of psychological imprisonment. A cycle of violence as old as humanity itself.
There was never anything wrong with you, of course; you were simply walking a different path from others, that’s all.
Perhaps you lost trust in yourself over the years. But today is a new day.
Don’t leave your path because of guilt, now, because you want to please friends and family, maintain the status quo. Don’t try to adapt anymore, but learn to love your maladaptation to the paths of others. You are adapting to your own original path!~Jeff Foster