An honest moment.... For about 2 years now I’ve been reading the book of Matthew. Not as consistently as I would I have liked lol but this summer I’ve finally gotten to the last two chapters.
Since I reached chapter 27, the chapter with the crucifixion, it’s been 2 weeks since I picked up my Bible. Every time I would try, I couldn’t do it. I wasn’t ready. I’ve been a Christian for a long time now, I know how this story ends! Why am I so hesitant to continue on with the story? Jesus wins! All I have to do is continue reading, after getting to know Him so intimately, with the knowledge that He dies for me.
I have this picture in my head... the sky is dark, the air is still, there’s a cross before me and a man on it. I’m standing alone at His feet. We are the only two there in this moment and I have an overwhelming sense of guilt and sorrow because this man, Jesus, is on the cross for me. Because of what I did. Not for anyone else in this moment, but just for me. He takes a deep breath, tells me to look at Him, and then says “Daughter, what more could I give for you than My life? And my life for you I give willingly and gladly so that you can know and hear My voice.” The picture fades and I sit back and ask myself “what am I not willing to let Jesus die for?” I have no doubt that Jesus would die for me again if He had to, but I don’t want Him too. What am I holding onto so closely that I can’t even finish the chapter to get to the happy ending?
My question for you is: what are you not ready for Jesus to die for? And why?
I’m ready to let go of what I’m holding on to. Its time to take the uncomfortable step and stop being content in my brokenness because it’s familiar. It’s time to allow Jesus to die for my insecurities and anxieties, and move onto the next chapter, celebrating and focusing on the fact that He is alive!
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