"Choose" Contributed by Sharessa Bass @_sharessa
How do you choose which child to protect when the offended and the offender are both your seeds? As a child I grew up feeling abandoned by my mother, most of my close family members, and even the world. I felt like my only true love was my twin. I was physically and sexually abused by family members, stripped of my innocence and self-worth at a very young age. A more accurate assessment would be to say that I was left ignorant of my own self worth. Feeling like my own mother didn't even love me. But, as I intentionally digested every heart felt word of my loving sister posted via social media, I was torn, by my own cypher of emotions. Because as a child I didn't connect emotionally or physically with my mother. Even her delivery of the word of God fell on death ears with me, because of past abuse. .
So as I was getting ready to start my day today; I realized that God was preparing me for a new day. He begun to bombard me with internal questions like: was I wrong for feeling hurt, abandoned, lost, confused, angry, and undesired? And, because He is not a God of confusion He replied by saying the following: No, you were not wrong for how you felt as a child. Because your hurt and pain was real, but remember when you were a child you thought as a child and you reasoned as a child. But now that you are an adult you must think as an adult and reason as an adult, and discard all of your childish ways. (1 Corinthians 13:11) .
Instantly I was given revelation "hurt people, hurt people."My mother was abused as a child so her relationship with her mother was one of broken communication, due to a past of physical and sexual abuse. And, because we mimic what we know, I tend to be the overbearing, over protective, insensitive mother at times, in an effort to protect my babies from being harmed.
Continue reading this very transparent devotional here, http://bit.ly/choosethesanctuary. Link in bio. .......
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