Tagged in the #FailForwardCampaign by @xo.healthy and @jlester11 😘😘
•••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• Failure is never easy to come to terms with- especially for me. It is often painful to admit my faults, and be vulnerable for others to witness. What I’ve realized is that being vulnerable is the purest form of courage. You are a warrior lion every day you make yourself vulnerable to the world and move forward in your truth 🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁🦁 I felt like a failure for most of my early 20’s. I remember everyone telling me how much their 20’s were the best times of their lives but I honestly didn’t love 20-25 at all 🤪 I had my heart broken too many times to count, couldn’t get the test scores I needed, and didn’t have a real, salaried, big-girl job like the rest of my amazing friends. I was constantly comparing myself and felt so unbalanced- but I learned from my mistakes and became stronger because of it.
1) I was a stellar athlete growing up as well as a scholar student. I was recruited to play softball for several D1 schools Yale, Columbia, BYU and others. I chose BYU because it was a dream of mine to play for a top school and program. My first year playing at BYU I tore my labrum in my left shoulder and had to have a SLAP repair. I was devastated. On top of that I failed my first college class and got multiple C’s in my pre-health profession classes (General Chemistry BLAH). My dreams were crushed. I tried rehabbing to come back, even transferred schools to give myself a better opportunity to play more, but ultimately- after three years- decided my time was up, hung up my cleats, and focused on school. I remember spending several years so ashamed that I didn’t live up to what I thought my only identity was- me being an athlete. It was heart wrenching and difficult for me to find what else I could be great at. Ultimately, I found the blessings through that pain, as I was able realize that our identities are malleable and that my sport wasn’t the only thing that defined me in this life. In fact it groomed me to become a better healthcare provider.
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