I can't sleep, but this speaks volumes. I'm grateful for one person recently, going through the same ordeal in the opposite way enabling my understanding of their heart ache.
But watching someone mature so quick to responsibilities gives me pride knowing them, and obviously I'll support them in their journey into parenthood.
...and then you watch the person you would've/could've given up everything for, to see little to no change... I guess my sleepless nights are cause I'll always hope, I'll always dream my little girl will have her daddy around. That he'll realise how hard it is for me as well, cause that love isn't gonna just vanish and I need someone to realise that our kid comes first, but it's okay to piss money down the drain And offer me nothing but twisted lies. And yet Nobody can replace him in my mind.
But I'm strong enough to know my own worth and values, and my doubts and instincts were right. They are there to protect OUR daughter, and myself...
But I'll always hope for change. Hope he realises what his daughter needs, what I might even need... in him for her sake, for his own.
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