I've always suffered from figuring out the depth of this world, just to what extent colours can be vibrant, aromas can spread through meadows of hot red roses. Everything would seem so dull, lifeless inspite of screaming with energy and movement, emotions of happiness were nearly never apparent. Sadness though, hopelessness, always crawled into my heart and lurked so easily and gracefully; stealing my smile, snatching the light my eyes squinted furiously to glimpse its presence; well, untill you came. How much I recall the way all what I've described above used to melt, how my breaths that were excruciating before would become mesmerizing. Just one look upon that radiant smile of yours and all my worries would collapse into nothingness. One second of eye contact drenched me in warmth. I never understood why, and I never will, for you were not the most likeable amongst the crowd. But, it was like a seventh sense, a new vision implanted upon me to see you not as the person they claimed you to be, but a home. To long for your presence in my darkest hours and wish for your voice in the most dire of moments. To find comfort and shelter only by your side, to see your figure as a long living artwork despite knowing deep inside you were far from a model. Far from the perfect, handsome, man. And I tried, I tried so hard to cage my heart, scold it for even trying to feel again. "Have you forgotten what bestowed upon us from pain before?". However, even my mind couldn't control it, let alone my heart. As the days passed, the possibility of the sun ray's being brighter brighter was unrealistic because of your existence.
this all was only for a limited time though. The months we spent together now feel like days, the days we crossed our paths are now minutes, the minutes I drowned inside your eyes are now milliseconds to me. As for you, you're now another visitor who decided to rent my heart then leave, leaving behind a mess, and a memory.
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