Exactly 2 weeks ago, I came out of my third surgery within 2 years.
As I skim through the week and today I dropped by work ( and yes its one of my most passionate event I’ve done in the past four years ), I realised how angry I became when I got home. I was angry with myself that again I have to let go of my favourite things due to the #BigC . Work. Trips. Running. And the least could go on and on but it all leads to one thing - TIME.
Its really annoying to let go of things and also to burden people with what I’m going through because either I’m dumping more responsibilities or holding them back and it seems pretty selfish of me. Sickens me to the core sometimes.
I hate feeling weak and actually am slightly happy that I skipped a #chemo session because I could feel my energy again... but then chemo is coming in a few days time which I’m not so looking forward to because was informed that they’re adding on the dosage. Sigh.
I really wish I was somewhere else right now. But again, wrong timing. Peh. But then, whenever I feel down, I always look back to this photo on how the balloons make me so happy, how little things make me happy. Sometimes it takes you to appreciate more when something big hits you. So folks, don’t take things for granted. .
For now, i’m counting the days ( another 1 1/2 months ) till am done with treatment and hopefully by then this #cancer can F%^CK the hell off. Ok goodnight sekian ramblings untuk hari ini. This is the problem when you keep on thinking, lol. Tomorrow will be a better day.
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