#longpost Welp. I weighed myself today because my new program starts tomorrow and I wanted an accurate before weight. It was not pretty. I'm not going to share it, but I have taken a major step back.
I have a million excuses; traveling, not drinking enough water, not sleeping enough, etc. But the fact of the matter is: I never made the right choice. Never. My plan was to make the right choice as often as possible and not feel guilty when I indulged a few times. But I indulged every time. Sometimes I didn't have the opportunity to make the right choice, but everytime I did have that chance, I didn't do it.
Even after the first day, I felt like crap and I said to my mom and husband (on the phone) how awful I felt, and that I would be sticking to plan the next day. Yet I still failed. On the plus side, I was reminded how very very easy it would be for me to slip back into my old habits. If I am not vigilant every day, I could one day wake up and be 300+ pounds again. I DO NOT WANT THAT.
This morning, in my pajamas, I did a little bit of stretch and floor work. I did #T25Stretch, and #BBLTummyTuck. I start my new program tomorrow and I didn't want to go in completely cold, but I also didn't want to exert too much and risk muscle soreness for the first day tomorrow. You may wonder why I'd be so careful and I'll tell you.
Tomorrow I start Insanity Max:30! It was almost 2 years ago that I made a set of long-term goals and posted them up here. One such goal was to be fit enough for Insanity. I don't know if that time is here, but I know I'm ready to give it my best effort. I've missed Shaun T, and I am actually pretty excited for tomorrow. Hopefully the intense cardio will help me repair the damage from this mini-break, and put me back in the right direction!