I once heard a preacher say “For the anointing to flow, there must first be a crushing” and I never truly understood what that could mean until now. In this picture, you see me leading a group of my colleagues in a prayer of healing for a little girl who was struggling with a painful infection at the start of July. What you don’t see, however, is the thoughts that were plaguing my mind as I was translating, throughout the entire week, and the weeks to come. Thoughts like “You’re just a translator. God can’t use you. You’re not making an impact. No one would miss you if you were gone”. These thoughts dominated my mind for the better part of a month, and as the weeks progressed, more thoughts were added. “Rejected. Alone. Useless. Mistake. Failure. Unloved. Replaced. Shameful. Embarrassment.” I began to get frustrated with myself and in tears I would cry out to God. “How could I be in this place, God? I’m a Christian! I’m in Ministry School! I shouldn’t have these struggles. I shouldn’t make the mistakes that I’ve made. Maybe I was never meant to serve you.” As the month neared it’s end, my heart would reach its peak of pain. I had never felt such an intense hurt as I had, and as would have been expected after weeks of listening to the Devil’s lies, a final thought entered my mind space. “It’d be better for you and everyone else if you weren’t around anymore”. It’s funny how, as we traverse this journey of life, we have the choice of how to view our circumstances and how to structure our thoughts. And as July came to a close, I heard two words that showed me I had that choice. “Choose Life”. In a moment of healing that only Jesus can provide, the words of death that I had believed for so long were wretched from my brain. Now I had been given different thoughts, and I heard them in my Father’s voice. “There is greatness inside you. You are a world changer. You are my Son. Accepted. Qualified. Forgiven. Approved. Loved Unconditionally. Covered. Chosen. Called. Anointed.” And as I dwelt on that last word, I thought of that preacher and his quote on anointing. He was right and I now understood. This was my crushing, so God, Let It Flow. Choose Life, Choose Jesus.