I wrote a Freestyle poem to try and express my inner world. I hope it speaks to some of you also going through a long ‘dark night of the soul’
I call it The Dreamers Dream 🌌☯️🌊🙏 “Confused, drowning in the sea of my mind, tossing and turning in the ocean of my despair, scattered beliefs and fear, oh dear.
Faithful to mystery, yet lost, panicked yet somehow safe, uncertain but somehow surrendering, fearful but somehow in some way hopeful.
Loved and Loving but so imperfect,
So imperfect yet so sincere, so sincere yet so weak, so weak yet so strong, so kind yet so horrid.
So messy yet so trying, so giving up yet so holding on, so much love, yet so much pain, so much pain, so much pain and confused as to what is lost and what is gained. Everything upside down, and sideways and backward and forwards and no clear line or path to follow, mostly confusion, panic, fear and tears I seem to swallow, Then left feeling pitiful and full of almost felt sorrow, somehow full yet also hollow.
My love runs deep, despite all apparent lack of upkeep.
I try or I wish or I wish to try or I wish to stop trying and allow and surrender to let go of all the dread, the terror and unfathomable grief, pain and confusion deeper then the ocean, but I seem to lack the clarity, the trust, the unconditional devotion, to the void of unknown infinite void like ocean of Allness and mystery of all mystery’s beyond all concepts and ideas, and before thoughts, fears and tears.
I must trust in the “unspeakable mystery of Love, and life and the dreamer of dreams, the life like dreams and the dreams of dreams.
The life lived and the life before life, the words and the Nothing.
The silence before thought, the I am before I am. The quiet of the Void.
The space between being and unbeing.
The deep dream between all dreams 🙏” #poetry #poem #depression #hope #hopelessness #hopelesswanderer #peace #fear #death #life #destruction #void #nonduality #existance #black #light #dark #allness #nothing #nothingness #one #oneness #confusion #delusion #truth #story #dream #poet #poetrycommunity #abstract