Novembers color for #pregnancyandinfantloss was chosen by my friend @laurenariza 💕 She shared her story with me months back and now she's sharing it with all of you ✨
"In the fall of 2014, my husband and I found out that we were pregnant. Super excited, and a little nervous, we began changing our routine- well, actually mine more than his hahaha but that’s to be expected. Due to some traveling, we had our first ultrasound at 10 weeks and although it does not run in either family found out WE WERE HAVING TWINS. Total shock. Husband was elated. I was terrified. After some time though, I definitely took on the same elation and we both were ready for a unique and overwhelming experience of two little ones at once!
A few weeks later, during our ultrasound for the chromosomal disorders test we found out that contrary to original belief, our twins were in the same sac (mono-mono) which is the rarest of twins, other than conjoined which is the most rare. We were told that day that they were healthy and growing fast, they had passed their tests, and had strong heartbeats BUT we were looking at a very long and high-risk road because their cords had tangled. This meant that either A) we make it to 22 weeks and I am admitted into the hospital to be monitored (for up to 2 1/2 months) and have them pulled out if in danger and put in the NICU or B) their tangle worsens before then and they cut off one another’s supply and don’t make it.
We took that information home to process. We were either looking at two little identical twin premies at the end of this whole thing, or nothing at all. It’s an interesting place to be, like you are on a tight-rope and either your life changes forever with your family doubling in size! Or you go back to being a non-pregnant person. And there was nothing we could do to help. There’s no spinning machine they can put you in to untangle them… or the option to consume less sugar so they wrestle/dance around less lol. And after all that, at 15 weeks we found out that the tangle had in fact worsened and although they were otherwise healthy and thriving, we had lost them.
It’s a strange thing when you lose... (Story continued on comment below)