N8r's gonna N8. 🌔💛 I have a hard time seeing myself and my body for what it is. A lot of people don't understand how low self esteem or self confidence come to be; they say a girls self worth and value is usually established around the age of 8 years old, for me my world was ending and changing completely from moving from one continent to another. I was bullied a lot from childhood until my teenager years, and they say that as a victim the people who are known to be cruel (the term predator doesn't have to only mean physically) tend to find you easily. As a child I had short hair and was constantly locked in the boys bathroom while they would chant that I was a "ugly little boy", as a pre-teen I was awkward and my friends would constantly tell me how some day I "would hopefully be hott" just like my sisters. In highschool, I kissed the wrong boy; he had a girlfriend... and I was a labeled a "whore" for four years before ever losing my virginity.
Be careful what you say, because what comes out of your mouth may mean little to you, but it may change someone's life completely.
People have a hard time understanding why I don't consider myself beautiful, or sexy or even very woman-like. My entire life I was either put down, or compared to my beautiful sisters in hopes that i would some day be like them; I am nothing like them and I think part of me continues to wait.
Through yoga I have BEGAN the process of understanding that I am nothing like my sisters, but that's not a bad thing at all, and through @thc_samuel I have been captured as beautiful even though I still struggle to see it as clearly as I should. I am so proud to be part of @nathan_miers project and I wear his clothes proudly because to me, they mean I am becoming comfortable in my own skin. ❤️