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MOST RECENT

Hallo ihr lieben,
das ☝️ sind wirklich die aaaaaallerbesten Chips, die ich je gegessen habe 😍. Ungelogen!!!
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Heute bin ich wieder in Eichstätt angekommen und bin nicht besonders glücklich darüber, wie ihr euch vermutlich vorstellen könnt 😫. Ich suche jedoch weiterhin nach einer alternativen Wohnung, bisher bin ich aber leider nicht fündig geworden 😔.
Morgen früh habe ich wieder einen Versuch. Insgesamt müssen wir 25 „Versuchspersonenstunden“ sammeln, also 25 Stunden lang an Experimenten teilnehmen. 9 Stunden habe ich schon und morgen folgt dann die zehnte 🙆‍♀️.
Ansonsten gibt es bei mir gerade nichts zu erzählen. Daher wünsche ich euch gleich einen schönen Sonntagabend ❤️!

Sunday morning waffles. Having a hard time this morning. Body image isn’t good and I feel like I’ve put on a lot of weight this week. I am so nervous for my weigh in. I know I’ve gained but my dietician is hell bent on giving me a meal increase no matter what my weight does. Plus it’s a holiday this week which brings up a lot of emotions. Thanksgiving is always really really hard for me. I haven’t sat down to eat with my family in a few years. This year I am determined to eat with them. I’m not sure if I am ready to eat what everyone else is eating, but I want to at least sit and share the meal with them and eat something rather than sit in my room. #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiafight #beateatingdisorders #2fab4ana #edrecovery #strongnotskinny #ed #edrecovery #edfam #eatingdisorders #exerciseaddiction #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anarecovery #anorexiafight #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #prorecovery #recovery

Anyone experience Sunday scaries? .
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This is a great picture of things that may help you today .
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What helps you start the week off right? .
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Such wise words from one of our amazing eating disorder recovery coaches, @sarahrzemieniak. When we first begin our recovery process, it feels incredibly overwhelming. And as such, it's unreasonable and impossible to expect that we manage everything at once. 🙅🏼‍♀️
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Making peace and/or accepting our bodies is, like Sarah says, a daunting order. In order to build this acceptance, we must find ways for us to find worth within ourselves that include things other than our weight or bodies.
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Because we are more than that. The impact we have on others, the way we laugh when we are with people who mean the world to us, the hobbies that make us feel alive and access our true values... these are all things that can make up who you are. 💫
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You are worthy and enough just by being. 💛
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If you think you can benefit from recovery coaching, click our link in bio to see how Sarah can help you. 👆🏼

I don’t need to go back to this to prove I’m struggling. I never needed to get to this to validate my struggles in the first place. I don’t have to lose “ just a few more kg “ in order to be able to recover , it doesn’t work like that.
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You can’t just get to a point your head tells you to get to and then go “ right , I’ve reached my goals , now I can finally be happy and go back to living my life ! “. There’s no such thing as sick enough , there’s no such thing as reaching that goal ; because the goal just keeps getting further and further away until it becomes impossible. Most importantly , even if you do reach that goal , there’s no such thing as simply just being happy and continuing your life. Anorexia will never be happy , and I refuse to spend any more of my time trying to please such a demanding illness with impossible standards. -
I’ve pushed myself out of various relapses over the years without getting to that “ goal “ and I often think to myself that I’m a failure for for “ giving up “. Well you know what , I’d much rather fail anorexia’s stupid game than fail at living my life. I’ve lost my most precious years to this torture and I REFUSE to dedicate my valuable time to continue on this never ending path of destruction. I REFUSE to put this little girl who used to be so happy through any more pain , I’m going to carry her round in my arms and give her the life she was missing out on. -
I’m never going to get all that time back that I lost to anorexia , but instead of focusing on what’s lost I’m giving my all to make sure I grab what I can from here on out. You should too ☀️

when in doubt, have some good hangover food! life is too short to not enjoy good food especially after an amazing night out! so tired of living by anorexia rules 😴 where did that get me? hospital, no fun, nearly dying. however i’m finally enjoying life! it’s hard still but i’m getting there! ❤️ to anyone who’s battling an eating disorder; i hope you find some sort of peace someday. even if you don’t fully recover, i hope that you can atleast have a better quality of life than this💕

This cereal 😍😍😍 If you haven’t tried it yet, you NEED to! How are you all doing? This has been a crazy busy week for me. And despite it all, here I am, still eating and surviving. A lot of things happened and my brain’s default is to absolutely tear myself to shreds over them. For example, I think I bombed an anatomy exam, feel responsible for my dog getting sick, backed my car into a garage and cracked my bumper & shattered my tail lights 😅, haven’t had time to cook nice meals, haven’t been able to walk my dog all week, have been absolutely sucking at replying to texts, etc. I feel down about it all, but I KNOW that wasting my time pitying myself will get me nowhere. Bad weeks happen, and that’s okay! What matters is that we must keep moving forward. And taking care of ourselves. Restricting is so easy when we’re already feeling bad about ourselves. But it only leads to things getting worse. Keep moving forward, my friends 💞

Yummy feta salad sandwich for lunch 🥪
Not going to lie, I’ve had a bit of a shitty morning. I had to send a really hard message to my boyfriend telling him that I love him so so much, but I can’t do this any more 😢 he has been travelling for 2 months now and it’s already killing me, there is no way I can deal with another 16 months. Although we were only together for 4 months, I have never ever felt about anyone like I felt about him. He showed me that there is a life without anorexia, and that I can be loved. He gave my hope for the future and something to keep fighting for 💕
Deep down, I have hope that when he gets back next year, we may beable to rekindle our relationship, but for now, it’s time for me to take a step back 😢
#edrecovery #edwarrior #edfamily #edfam #edfighter #anorexiarecovery #anorexia #anorexianervosa #anorexiafighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #eatittobeatit #strongnotskinny #foodisfuel #2fab4ana #pissoffana #fuckana #food #prorecovery #anawarrior #recoveryisworthit #anafamily #adultswitheds #healthy #ed #vegan #plantbased #allgoodthingscometoanend #heartbroken

Das war mein Mittagessen 😧
⚠️TRIGGERWARNING!!!⚠️
Ich kann es irgendwie nicht beschreiben wie ich mich fühle, aber nicht gut. Ich finde essen generell total komisch. Letztens habe ich eine Mutter mit ihrem ca 10 jährigen Sohn in der Bahn gesehen und die haben beide gegessen. Einfach so gegessen ohne nachzudenken. 😕 Und es kreisen sich die ganze Zeit die Gedanken um die Klinik und vor allem die Zunahme.. Ich kann mir gar nicht vorstellen wie ich zunehme und einfach immer dicker werde. Jetzt fühle ich mich noch sicher, nehme sogar mehr ab, da ich nicht nach der Klinik 55kg wiegen will. Langsam hab ich das Gefühl der Klinikaufenthalt wird der größte Fail sein. 😂 Ich kann jetzt nicht wirklich einschätzen wie ich zusammen arbeiten werde. Ich schätze mal, ein Tag läuft es ok... und am zweiten Tag absolut gar nicht, ergreife Maßnahmen. Ich merke ja wenn sich an meinem Körper was ändert, der Bauch sich wölbt, meine Beckenknochen nicht mehr rausstechen nervt mich, hält mich auf vom Essen. Möchte am liebsten gar nicht mehr essen. Irgendwie ist der Gedanke an Essen und Zunehmen total komisch und fremd. So neu, als hätte ich es noch nie im Leben gemacht also "normal" gegessen. Kaum zu beschreiben. Ich weiß nicht wie sich das anfühlt und möchte es auch irgendwie nicht wissen. Andere meinen aber es ist sehr wichtig und erst dann lebst du wieder richtig... aber mein Leben war vor der Anorexie auch scheiße.. Von daher gibt mir die Essstörung sehr viel. Ich spare viel Geld, habe weniger Arbeit in der Küche, nehme nicht zu, schönes Gefühl, leerer Bauch, Selbstwert und bewusstsein steigt ein wenig, Stolz &&&...
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REAL TALK. Being fully recovered from an Eating Disorder and having body kindness and self-acceptance IS POSSIBLE and it really is worth it... but having and living with those things does not mean I wake up every day loving my body. It does not mean that I am the same person I used to be just now without an Eating Disorder, it does not mean that I am this ideal creature that is immune to diet culture! Instead it means that I am patient, I am kind and I have acceptance for not only my body, but also for my life. After recovery from an Eating Disorder your life shifts, your expectations shift, and you learn to cope in this world without taking it out on your body. Instead there is gratitude and compassion but it IS NOT easy and IT IS NOT PERFECT. Six months ago I started on a medical and health journey that had nothing to do with my past of an Eating Disorder.... but it has now effected my entire life, my entire wellbeing....and as i continue to embark on this journey of trials, surgeries and diagnosis, I am challenged with an entire new way to accept my body AND my life..... and it really sucks but I’m learning that IT IS POSSIBLE!!! So if you are questioning whether or not you can take the leap to live a life free from body hate and an Eating Disorder... let me tell you that YOU CAN, and it is SO WORTH IT my friends!

Being able to see an increase in eating disorder and/or body image thoughts as an alarm signal of something else that you need to pay attention to, can be a game-changer in recovery. 👊🏻
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Your eating disorder is here for a reason, so let’s try to figure out the functions that it’s serving.
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Comment below 👇🏻 and fill in the blanks ‘my eating disorder is helping me to _______’
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What I really need is ______
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Jk... you probably shouldn’t do that 😂🤣. But just a reminder that diet talk, food and body comments have no place at the Thanksgiving table. Ain’t nobody thankful for diet culture here!
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And a reminder to anyone in recovery that you have the right to set boundaries necessary to protect your recovery during the holidays this year! ❤️

Hey guys! ITS ME😂 Long time no see...sorry for my absence. I just dont know what to do here tbh. I dont take pics of food anymore and i dont wanna remind myself of this disease so idk if i will keep this account. But know this, i appreciate every single one of you so much, you've helped me when no one did, you supported me, motivated me, gave me strenght...and i wish you all to recover one day. To get out of this shit and live free💕
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Suuper scary #dinner yesterday was a salad with mozzarella sticks, squid rings and fried chicken🙈 so much fried stuff I nearly freaked out also because it didn't taste as good as I expected it to😑 it felt like a waste but I ate it anyways because I'm stronger 💪
What are your favorite salad toppings?🥗
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This mornings snack was a bit of a jigsaw as I dropped the box of crackers just before and they all broke in half 😂
Just got back from a good yoga session 🧘‍♀️
What have you all got planned for this Sunday?
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Breakfast/Morning snack? 108g Apple and belvita milk and cereals biscuits. I woke up super late and felt absolutely horrible so just this was a push 😕

Guten Morgen 🌹
Mit dem Essen läuft es gar nicht und morgen hab ich meinen Termin bei meiner Ernährungs- beratung. Hab angst, bin aber auch etwas gespannt, was mich da erwartet... Und ich hoffe ich werde ernst genommen als Veganerin.. Mir braucht keiner kommen mit "Kennst du dich überhaupt aus?" Ich weiß so viel über Veganismus und bleibe bei diesem Lebensstil für immer. Vegan ist die Zukunft, und nicht just for fun oder Diät oder NUR aus ethischen Gründen. Da steckt viel viel mehr dahinter! 😉
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