Day 51: "I have forced a girl into having sex once..."
Warning: Long Read.
One of my other deepest and darkest secrets. This one definitely tops my other most shameful thing I have ever done. And possibly one of the very few things I regret in my life.
I met this girl off a dating app, we hit it off quite well even though she was a FOB and I wasn't. She was looking for a relationship after almost 8 years of not being in one, and I was at a point where I didn't want a relationship. I was honest with this and she understood, but we continued bring friends. She hadn't slept with anyone in about 3 years, so I would occasionally joke about helping her with that. She took it well and wasn't offended or disgusted by it.
One time she decided to come over, we had dinner that I cooked and we started drinking and watching a movie. She tried to get me drunk, for some reason, and I managed to become very tipsy. This is when I started trying to coax her into sex, in which for over an hour she would say no because she's not that type of girl. But I kept insisting and wouldn't let her leave. She eventually gave in and said ok because she realized there was no other way.
I felt disgusted and ashamed of myself the next morning when I sobered up, I realized what I had done and I apologized profusely. Luckily she accepted my apologies and she took the situation very well, we are still friends now and still talk quite often. But I can't shake the fact that I forced her into sleeping with me... I am a disgusting human being...
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