hi. not sure how to start this so im just gonna start. im sorry for everything. for making you cry and making you hate me. I fuck up everything good for me. no matter what I say.. ill always love you. you’ve stayed with me for so long, im not sure why, with all the shit I put you through.. but I guess that’s what real friends do.. they stay no matter what. I say a lot of hurtful things to you and im sorry. I don’t mean any of them. you mean the world to me and it would kill me to see you go. you probably hate me with every bone in your body but I still love you just as much as I did when I first met you so it’s okay. we’ve known each other for a long time, not sure how long but at least 5 months, maybe longer. thanks for listening to my problems and for being there for me. you’re never serious which doesn’t help whenever im being serious but that’s what makes you, you. I get very jealous and mad easily, usually whenever im mad at you, im jealous of someone that’s talking to you. I also enjoy making you jealous and mad, that’s why I do the things I do. I love you no matter what. please never leave me. you’re my everything and I would hate for you to leave. everything I do I think of you. I just wanna kiss you and cuddle you all night long but I can’t. I hope you love me just as I love you. please never leave my life. please always be mine. thank you for loving me and always seeing the good side of me. I love you so much and you’ll never know because I suck with words. I want you to be mine forever and ever but you can’t be. just don’t leave me.. continue to want me and love me just as you do now, always. I never want to lose you, ever. so please don’t leave. I love you, alex.