Scrolling through my feed I realized that I have to come out because Instagram is all about beautiful pictures, happy moments but we all know that it’s not how life really looks like. So let me tell you my truth. Here’s this selfie of me in the end of this day. It’s not hard to figure out that today was awful. I say even more. The last couple of days were more than awful. Mór and I got sick, I have no voice, I have a hurting knee and other symptoms which would be to much to share. Tears, blood, constant fights with my son who’s obviously struggling with the growing family situation. Honestly, pumping some milk for my friend’s newborn baby was the best part of this day because for ten silent minutes I was alone in a room and I didn’t have to shout or say “don’t do that” for a millions times. So this day was not the best.
I just wanted to tell you that yes, I’m guilty of posting the best moments of our life but I don’t want to lie. So here’s how I feel. I have an amazing, supportive and loving husband, beautiful children, my family, friends and I’m more than grateful for what I have BUT I’m literally fed up right now. I had moments when all I wanted is to scream and leave all this behind. And the guilt, oh the guilt.... Don’t get me wrong, I’m okay, we’re healthy (not counting the flu), we live in love but this is just life. The brighter days are just right around the corner. But now I let myself cry and eat all the chocolate or maybe drink some a glass of something. And I send virtual hugs to all you mamas out there. 👊🏼❤️🙌🏼#motherhood #motherhoodrising #takebackpostpartum #reality