I cant believe it has been a year since I last saw my sister. I remember that day like it was yesterday. That day is something I cherish but it’s also a day that will haunt me for the rest of my life. The chilling phone call I received when the 911 officer told me that there had been an accident replays in my head constantly. I always think to myself that what if I could have done something? But as we all know, life must go on. I was once told that life is tissue paper thin, and it truly is. We all think that we’re invincible but life happens. One second I was living my normal life and the next, everything changed. Life as I knew it just didn’t make sense anymore. All I wanted to know was “why?” Over the last year, I have been doing my best to make my sister proud. I have always wanted her to look up to me as a role model and I still want her to. With that, I have been learning how to love myself but it’s pretty difficult without the help of my best friend. But I have gotten stronger and have continued to grow a little stronger everyday.
When you lose a sibling it’s like a piece of you is gone too. It’s hard to realize that you will never get to see them, touch them, laugh with them, or fight about clothes with them ever again. I am eternally grateful for the 16 years I was able to spend with her, even though 16 years was not enough time. We had so many plans and dreams together that will never be fulfilled. Today is a sad day but it’s a day that I will remember the good memories we had together.
The one thing I want you all to get out of this is to love everyone. Love everyone and everything with all of your heart because you never know when that something will be gone.
To my sweet sister, you were the most beautiful person I have ever encountered, both inside and out. your lively soul is missed every single day. There’s not a day when you’re not on my mind. Keep standing next to me in all that I do. I love you so much.
Forever & Always,
Your Big Sister