i've been both in love with & afraid of food for as long as i can remember. while my "formal" struggle with eating disorders lasted only a few years, i've still never entirely shed those anxieties, and maybe i never will. this is exactly why anthony bourdain and people like him, people who are devoted to delicious food and the culture that facilitates it, are deeply important to me: they remind me that delicious food is pretty much the only pure joy in this life, and that depriving yourself of it out of fear (fear of the unknown, fear of people different from you, fear of having an imperfect body)- is a very sad life indeed.
i just had one of the best meals in my life in a shopping mall in hangzhou. tomorrow i leave for shanghai and the first item on my agenda is a back alley noodle shop on his recommendation. my life is so full, and i can't thank him enough for serving as a constant reminder that that's always how it should be. 🙏🏼