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  MMG NY Protecting my he(art).

Lately I’ve had so much material for new blog posts and poetry, yet I’ve produced nothing. All I have is fragments: a line here, a phrase there, the beginning of a paragraph that I may never complete.
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I’ve got all of these feelings stirring up inside of me, and they’re beginning to boil underneath the surface. Although I am aware that my emotions are preparing to spill over, I’m finally okay with that. I’m giving myself the opportunity to release what I should’ve let go of a long time ago.
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Periods of transition usually coincide with some degree of pain. I am consciously choosing healing over hurt. I am letting my pain direct me as opposed to consume me. Pain is an inevitable part of life, and it is giving me a run for my money as this year comes to a close. And although a lot of aspects in my life are gray as dynamics start to shift, one thing that is certain is that my strength and my sacrifices will prevail.
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Shot by @philmontphotography.

There is a difference between reconciliation and redemption. Be mindful of that when you’re dealing with me.
Shot by @finessenshots, make up by @_nicolepichardo.

Mirrors just remind me of what I already know.
Shot by @philmontphotography.

Protecting my peace at all costs.
Shot by @finessenshots, make up by @_nicolepichardo.

As my birthday weekend comes to a close, I just want to say thank you to everyone who helped make it as fun and memorable as it was. The outpouring of love I get on a regular basis never ceases to amaze me as it is, so when my birthday hits I’m always exceptionally overwhelmed with all of the calls, texts, voicemails, and DM’s I receive.
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To everyone who was with me at 40/40, thank you for pullin up and partying with me! To the few of you who couldn’t make it, your presence was missed. Thank you to Jess at 40/40 for coordinating my package and making sure everything ran smoothly, and thank you again to @jelena_silver, @missy_isi, and @a_list_asia for making sure I didn’t look like what I was going through on my special day. 😂😂 I am grateful for every single person who was involved in my celebration. You are all appreciated; thank you so much!!!!! ❤️💋

I don’t know what’s going on here, but I like it. Also, I want to give a special shout out to @jelena_silver for doing my birthday beat. Modeling for @makeupforeverus as well as the @makeupforeveracademy has been a highlight of my career thus far, so getting my makeup done at the MUFE Pro Studio was a no-brainer. And based on this video, the black eye shadow shimmer was the perfect choice! I mean.. 😍♥️

On birthdays, we wear red. #1102

A continuation of @finessenshots’ lighting tutorial/ BTS footage from our shoot.

Today is my birthday. Normally, I’d have a lengthy, artfully crafted caption that would highlight the year that just passed. Not this time. But what I WILL say, is that if I told you about the summer that I had, you wouldn’t believe it. If I told you about the week that I’ve had, you wouldn’t believe that either.
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Some days I just want to crawl into a hole and hibernate, while others I want to take on the world and smash my struggles to smithereens. Today I am caught in the middle. I’m tired. My heart hurts. My mind is fuzzy. But I’m grateful. Today I’m 26, and the glass is half full.
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Shot by @finessenshots, makeup by @_nicolepichardo.

@finessenshots’ lighting tutorial / BTS footage from our first shoot together! 😬❤️

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