Anyone that knows me, knows I try to be that guy everyone wants to be around and can always come to for help. But the last few months I have not been the same person Ive always been. I've blown off multiple people, kicked people out of my life, said things I shouldn't of, done things I shouldn't have, and much much more. But one guy can only take so much shit from the world. I have bills coming out the ass, people getting on my nerves, my jobs getting the best of me, and everyday i just can't seem to win. I am pretty good at keeping shit to myself, but I'm on the verge of a meltdown, at risk of losing my shit on someone that doesn't deserve it, and somehow through everything I still wake up everyday and do everything I've done for 22 years to keep on living. I always care to much for everything and everyone that comes into my life and unfortunately it sometimes bites me in the ass. I keep telling myself to be smarter and make better decisions but I still fuck up somewhere on down the line. Nothing has been going right lately, and when I feel it can't get any worse it does. Things have not been easy, nor seeming to get better but by some miracle I'm still here and kicking for some reason. I work my ass off every single day for people that wouldn't even lift a finger for me, just so I can make the joke of a "living" that I do. So the moral of the rant is, don't get under the skin of someone, because you probably don't know what the fuck they are going through. To those of you I can rely on day in and day out, thank you for everything you guys and gals do. To those who have dropped me like I was nothing, go fuck yourself.