well actually getting removed from somewhere I've been attached to for more than a year wasnt that bad. yas i know learning to let go is how life works, maybe i just clung on my feelings too much and didnt even bear the thought of leaving that place. once, i thought if i ever left, what would it be like ? ha i guess i was thinking too high of myself (sr for my bad grammar, not in my conscious state), when they got the chance and when we got stuck in an inevitable war which completely tore us apart, it became easier than ever. they no longer need me, so why bother staying when i no longer had the desire to check their messages or talk to them ? afterall, yeah thats how life works. you become unnecessary, you got sacked. after all these shits happened, i dont really feel depressed or sad or anything, all thats left was only the feeling of betrayal. i dont blame them cuz i cant satisfy everyone, they can just kick me out when they feel i'm a burden. maybe, after this bullshit post and after night passes, i'm gonna get over this shit and move on. just wanna wish them luck in whatever they do and get along well. they have nothing to do with me anymore so this may be considered as the last appreciation post i mentioned them and the last thing relevant to that place. even though we werent always on good terms, i'm thankful that you have always been responsible and had more than enough courage to overcome difficulties. sincerely sorry for having been a burden, sorry for having caused troubles. thank you, and goodbye. also, screw you. i figure "love you guys" would be too fancy for you so forgive me for not being able to say that.