I can’t believe it’s going to be a week since I took a work trip to LA. A lot of you asked me how it went, and I didn’t post anything on here because I took a red eye flight back to Miami and I was exhausted after 12 hours of shooting. But it went really well! The day before I wasn’t too nervous, I was actually excited and ready to shoot. It’s crazy because prior to leaving I had a very difficult time emotionally. I felt extremely overwhelmed and under qualified (meaning I felt I would fail at this job). I had moments where I was so anxious that it would paralyze me and I had to fight thru it to finish other jobs in between. I share this because it’s something I struggle with. The way I talk to myself, the little I believe in myself (although I’m surrounded with people who believe in me). This was eye opening to the way I need to handle these situations, how I need to value my work, the way I talk/encourage myself. God clearly gave me the desires of my heart, and I ended up turning it into something so negative. One thought I kept reminded myself was “if God got me to it, he’ll help me through it.” I practiced a lot of breathing exercises, and a lot of begging God to remove the anxiety, knowing I would have to teach myself to deal with the responsibility and fight thru it. I don’t say this for you to let me know how “good” I am, I share this to let you know that a work trip to LA as dreamy as it sounds, came with a lot of stress, anxiety, and responsibility. I’m also standing here, a week later with a new perspective on how I need to handle these situations and embrace the responsibility, challenges, and love myself a little more.