In the middle of all my half finished paintings listening to the same 3 Enya songs ☕️
I feel like I’m so aware of where I want to be in everything I do and what it could look like, with every project I boil down to a little lump of stress trying to reach just a little higher, make it just a little more perfect, because I can see where I want to be and I’m not there. And I can tell myself “this is fine, leave it where it is,” but I KNOW it’s not right, and I steamroll over all the other parts of my life in order to make whatever art I’m working on my own personal version of good, whatever that happens to be. I’m so appreciative of this current season of school but I also look forward to when I’ll actually pay attention to other aspects of living, like my family and friends, and not just in a rushed kind of “sorry I just have so much to do” way.
I have a lot of fear about this body of work because it’s not what I’m used to doing and I’m not sure it will end up the way I want it to, but I’m still making it and it will exist!! If you’d like to come to my senior exhibition opening, it will be on April 23 at Minthorne Gallery @ George Fox University. I’ll be showing in the same room as some other wonderful artists, @stonepetalceramics @meganlfrancisco and @honeywutt. Hope to see you there 👸🏻🧜🏼♀️🦄