I think about dying daily BUT I don’t want to die *gasps*.
I have really awful thoughts about suicide daily yet I have a hunger for life more than most.
Suicidal tendencies are my minds twisted little way of telling me the world is better off without me and it crops up all the time but my body fights against it, I don’t want to die.
We think of suicide and we think of a person desperate to end their life, their suffering and our ignorance blinds us to much else because as a society we won’t talk about it... it’s seen as such a dirty horrible secret.
I am a Mother with a wonderful son, a supportive family and friends and a bright life yet some days I stare at the medicine draw a little too long before my rational brain pulls me back.
For me, suicidal tenancies come from trauma, BPD and self esteem issues and are deep rooted and complicated.
I don’t want to die yet I’m suicidal on the daily and that’s just me, it’s what I work with and fight against... hi.