Super scary update post coming your way 😳
Okay, this is something I've been meaning to post for quite sometime now and I'm finally ready.
I don't know how to put it into words so I'm just going to say it:
I have downloaded MyFitnessPal and will be starting a cut.
Now, I know 100% that many will disagree with me doing this, but please hear me out.
This is my journey and I am to the point mentally where I trust myself with this. This is not necessarily about weight loss but more about the fact that I have not been taking care of my body properly lately.
Yes, I believe in intuitive eating but I know myself better than anyone and intuitive eating just isn't what I need right now.
I need more structure right now and I have goals.
I have a wedding next year and I have physical goals in mind for that day.
Again, why does looking a certain way matter?
You're right, but my wedding day is a day I have pictured for forever. I WANT to slay in my dress tbh.
It's a day that I'm going to remember forever.
With all that being said, I am going to truly focus on how I'm feeling mentally and emotionally. If this blows up in my face I am going to be honest with myself and you guys.
I promise to keep myself in check and do what I need to do to keep myself sane and in a good state of mind.
To be honest, I miss crushing it in the gym and lifting almost twice my weight. I miss having the motivation that I used to have.
PLEASE try to leave the hate to yourself. I understand the concerns that will come up but please know that this is not a spontaneous decision and required much thought.
I will NOT be weighing myself and if I do it will be very rare. My biggest problem is the scale and I recognize that so I will not be adding that into my lifestyle.
Please feel free to ask any questions.