The road to Parenthood certainly wasn’t quite what we had expected... both coming from big Irish families I think we automatically expected to have a entire clan ourselves.
I became broody as soon as I hit my 30’s, but we struggled to get pregnant and after numerous tests we were put on the waiting list for IVF.
A few months later we fell pregnant with Nancy & she has brought us so much joy.
I never really imagined we would be that lucky again, so when I fell pregnant again last year we were both in shocked but so happy to be giving Nancy the sibling she had been asking for .
Unfortunately that pregnancy ended at 13 weeks when I had a miscarriage.
This photo was taken just a few weeks later back home in Ireland on our favourite beach with our favourite girl surrounded by family.
Despite the big smiles I can honestly say those were some of the darkest, most lonely times of my life.
Despite having so much love & support from friends & family I began to crumble.
I suffered from anxiety & felt angry at the world , at my body & the consultants who had dealt with us so inconsiderately at the hospital.
Then came the guilt of not feeling I was being a good a mum to Nancy anymore.
Thankfully a friend suggested I see a counsellor at Miscarriage support here in Glasgow. It really helped me get through those dark days & I will be forever grateful to them for their support.
So if any of you Mamas out there have been through this or are going through this I want you to know you are not alone , you will get through it & please seek help if you are not coping.
From my own experience the silence & stigma that still surrounds this kind of loss only serves to make you feel more alone. So we should be talking about it, raising awareness & offer help to all those women who feel they are suffering in silence.
I am a huge supporter of @tommys_thebabycharity and their recent campaign
They are helping to raise awareness & offer somewhere for people who have suffered loss can connect , share & help each other .
#togetherforchange #miscarriageawareness #womensupportingwomen #babyloss #babylosssupport #babylossawareness