Today I stepped on the scale for the first time in a month and saw a number I haven’t seen in 2 years: 132lbs
I haven’t weighed this much since before I started competing. Now I could have done 1 of 2 things.
1. Get upset, cry, tear myself down, say I’m fat, I let myself go, I’m a whale.
2. Look at myself objectively in the mirror and take more than just this number into consideration. Focus on my body composition, my #strength in my lifts, my great energy, my gained musculature, my massive food intake, my #happiness.
Yes, I’ve gained 22lbs in the 7 months since my show but those 22lbs were gained with intention. Intention behind my lifts, my #goals, my happiness. This entire #offseason was completed with INTENTION.
I intended to gain weight, I intended to gain muscle, I intended to gain a higher food intake, I intended to gain mental relaxation, I intended to gain life memories that didn’t involve the #gym or my #diet.
I am an athlete with goals for my future as a competitor and that included building more mass right now before shredding down for next summer.
I am also a human being that has the right to put their foot on the brakes and not worry about every workout or every morsel of food that goes into her body.
Weight gain isn’t always a bad thing. Sometimes it’s necessary. If you’re happy with yourself at the end of the day, then that’s what matters most.
And these new @celestialbodiez High Waisted Plaid is Rad Leggings definitely contribute to my current happiness. (Along with the Heather Grey Sports Bra and Black Mesh Racer Back Tank AKA CB head 2 toe.