Real talk ❤️ I have always, always, for as long as I can remember, felt uncomfortable in my own skin.
As a little girl I quit gymnastics because I felt so chunky in a leotard. As a high schooler I remember calming myself down from a panic attack before Prom because I thought I looked fat in my dress. I told myself for a loooong time that I could never even think about competing for Miss Utah because I didn’t have “the look.” I’ve always had a normal, healthy body type, but like a lot of girls, I swallowed the big fat lie that the only way to be beautiful was to be STICK skinny. And it went even farther than that— I started to believe that if I didn’t look that way, I wouldn’t be worth any thing at all. I thought that skinnier = better, more disciplined, smarter, funnier, cooler. It’s actually kind of insane how much I felt like my value was tied into the number on the scale or whether I had a thigh gap.
Over the last year I have put SO 👏🏼 MUCH 👏🏼 WORK 👏🏼 in learning to respect and love the skin I’m in. I still have a lonnnng way to go, for sure, but I know that I’ve come pretty far. I’ve had to learn to stop binge eating when I’m sad/angry/stressed, how to eat to FUEL my body and give it the nutrients that it needs, and how to be kind to myself every time I look in the mirror and see something less than what I would call “perfect.” If you’re going through something similar, I hope you know how much I love you. I have two pieces of advice that are simultaneously true: 1) you are beautiful just how you are. Period. Your value is not connected to your appearance. And 2) you should do everything in your power to be as healthy as you can— mentally, emotionally, physically. It’s hard. Loving yourself is hard. But lemme tell ya, hating yourself every day is not a good way to live your life. Your body is what it is, but your mind is malleable— start working there and things get a lot better ❤️ #GirlsEmpowered