Being a mom is hard. It’s not without selfish moments. This morning I was feeling selfish and angry and mad. Little Jojo woke up from her nap with a fever yesterday and had one on and off all night into the wee hours of the morning.
I woke up this morning knowing I wasn’t going to be able to go to hang out with my friends at our bi-weekly moms4moms group. And that also meant I wasn’t going to be there for a few meetings because I’m due with baby #3 in two weeks.
I’m still sad I missed it, but somewhere around 10am I got off the couch where I had been moping and decided to make the last part of the day better. I made myself a cup of coffee, sat, and colored with the kids. Now they are napping and I’m reading my bible and writing the word while the clothes dry. Then, I’m going to fold a load of laundry. I don’t know what the afternoon will consist of since Jo’s still not quite 24 hours without a fever (I’m thinking two year molars 😭), but I think it might be a walk around the block and some sidewalk chalk until Eric gets home kinda afternoon.
A lot of life is making the *choice* (yes, it is a choice!) to get up off your couch and quit moping and do something, anything. Choosing joy and life is something that some think will just be handed to them on a silver platter, but Philippians 4 tells us to put off anxiety and to rejoice always. To think about what is true and noble and just and pure. Paul tells us that contentment happens regardless of plenty or need. It is through his strength that we can do all things, including moving forward even when things aren’t the way you’d prefer them to go!
So today, in his strength, I am choosing things that are true, noble, just, pure, lovely, commendable, excellent, and praiseworthy. And I’m putting off the anger and selfishness. I’m choosing gratitude to be able to stay home with my kiddos and care for my daughter. Through his strength alone. 💗🙌🏻 #moming #momingishard #choosejoy #philippians4
Oh, and this is my 38 week (tomorrow) bump. I always wonder how I could get any bigger, then here I am.... 😂 T-2 week’s!